Nothing Even Matters

I Got Your Back ~ Chapter 3

Logan's POV

I ran out of the apartment, totally furious at my friends; the tears still flowing like torrents. What kind of a friend would treat you like that? I mean, sure it was a huge surprise for them, it had been for me too; it's not I like planned for this to happen. But doesn't ten years of friendship mean anything?

My mind kept going over and over these kinds of thoughts before I noticed that I was on the roof of the Palm Woods Hotel. I don't exactly remember wanting to go to the roof, but since I was there, I might as well try to get my mind off of things.

I laid down flat on my back to just stare up at the stars. How had it got dark so fast? Well, the few that you could see through all the smog. L.A. had nothing onMinnesota when it came to star-gazing.

I closed my eyes and got lost in the feeling of the cool, night breeze settling around my cheeks. Almost like the gentle caress of a lover.

I was overcome with thoughts of Kendall, and how I had just ran off, leaving him to deal with James and Carlos on his own. Wow, some boyfriend I turned out to be.

I let a few more stray tears roll down the sides of my face and hit the ground below me. I've got to stop all this crying. I may be gay, but I'm still not a chick. I have my dignity and my reputation to keep intact, I thought to myself, while another part of me just screamed, Oh, screw it. Screw my reputation. Nobody can even see me up here. Just get it off your chest, man.

I turned my head when I heard soft footsteps making there way towards me. I looked up into the beautiful, green eyes of my best friend and boyfriend, Kendall Knight.

Without saying a word, he laid down beside me, and I reached my arm up and draped it around his waist, while resting my head on his chest. I felt his arm curve around my shoulders, in a clearly comforting way.

We stayed that way for nearly 15 minutes before he decided to break the silence with deep sigh, "Baby, are you going to be okay?" Nothing but concern for me laced his voice as he spoke.

I pressed my face closer into his side and let out a small sob before answering, "Yea, I'll be fine. How did you even know I would be up here? I didn't even know I'd be here." I asked curious as to how he knew where I would be.

"Oh, come on, Logie. I'm the one that brought you here. For our first date, remember?"

I laughed lightly, "How could I forget? You were so nervous, you kept tripping over your own feet and stumbling through your words. You were a mess. But that's what made you so adorable, and made the date so amazing." We sat for another minute in a comfortable silence. "Look, Kenny...I just – I wanted to apologize for leaving you there by yourself. I didn't mean to run out on you, but I just couldn't take the looks of disgust in their eyes. Especially knowing they were aimed at us." I continued sobbing while I felt Kendall start to rub small circles on my back.

"Sweetheart, you have nothing to apologize for," he said while kissing my head. "James and Carlos were just acting like a couple of douche bags." He chuckled lightly to himself, "You know they were probably just jealous that I snatched you up before either of them could."

I chuckled into his shoulder, "Well, I have always thought that James was secretly gay. I mean, come on, no dude cares that much about his appearance unless they're gay."

"I agree, but I doubt he would ever admit to it. He's too proud." I could practically hear Kendall roll his eyes.

I laughed again and settled into another relaxing silence with my boyfriend; nothing but the sounds of his heart thudding in his chest and our steady breathing.