Letting Go

Chapter 3

Paris's P.O.V

I woke up to Ryan next to me, The Breakfast Club playing on repeat and Crystal snoring heavily. I smiled because it reminded me of when we were all younger and would have sleepovers and hangout together but my smile immediately fell as the memories of what had occurred earlier came back to me, playing in my head like a movie. And at that moment I decided to do something I hadn't done in years. I knelt on the side of my bed, put my hands together, closed my eyes, and prayed. I prayed for safety and security. I prayed for peace of mind. I prayed for our lives, Crystal, Ryan's and mine. I prayed for all of us to survive. And I prayed that God heard me as I cried out for him. I felt my face getting wet and I brushed my tears away so no one could see them even though no one was awake other than me, or so I thought. I glanced at Crystal and then at Ryan and saw him smile. He was awake. "What?" I asked him with a serious look on my face as I crawled back into my bed and his arms. "Nothing I uh never mind. I need to talk to you." He replied nervously. I squinted my eyebrows in confusion "OK... just talk to me now, Crystal's asleep" I said nodding my head towards Crystal. " No not now. When were alone. How about you sleep in my dorm tonight? We'll talk then." he said sure of himself. "That sounds good. I think we should wake Crystal now" I continued with a sly smile on my face. We both stood up and silently walked over to her bed. "Don't you even think about it" she exclaimed smiling with her eyes still closed and we all laughed. "C'mon Paris get dressed we are going swim suit shopping" Crystal declared. "Ugh right it's Thursday, I was hoping you would forget" I teased. "Not a chance, get dressed" she commanded.

As we drove to the mall I was extremely anxious. I had never liked swim suits in general but I hated shopping for them even more. You just had to try on so many and if you went with someone else, you had to show each bathing suit to the person you were going with. It was absolute pure torture for me. as Crystal started to park I could feel my hands starting to shake. I put them in my hoodie's pocket so Crystal wouldn't notice. "You excited?" Crystal questioned gleefully. "What do you think?" I blurted with a stern look on my face. "Yea I know I know but the faster we get started the faster we can leave" she coaxed. I undid my seat belt and hoped out of the car. "OK we are going to Forever 21, Valarie's and Uru today." she stated as she smiled. Crystal loved shopping just as much as I loved reading and writing, maybe a little more. I casually nodded and we started the long walk to Valarie's.

"I don't like that at all"  I complained to Crystal as she held up a black and purple polka dotted bathing suit. "That's what you said about the last 10, you need to get in the fitting room and try some on. Just go pick a few that catch your eye" she begged. I nodded and walked away, searching for decent swimsuits. I didn't like swimsuits because they were so revealing and showcased all my insecurities perfectly. My thighs, my stomach, my boobs, and my flat ass. Everyone can see my flaws and I feel like everyone judges me when I have them on.

After about twenty minutes I found two swimsuits that were decent. The first had a strapless top with pink and black stripes and had a heart gem broach in the middle, the bottom was solid black. The second was triangular shaped and was leopard print, the bottom was a small leopard printed thong that I wasn't fond of at all but there were no other leopard printed swimsuits so I had to settle for this one. I headed over to the fitting room and found Crystal waiting for me. "Finally, you took so long that I already bought my swimsuit I'll show it to you when we get back to our dorm before you go sleep at Ryan's" she announced with a smirk on her face. I could feel my face turning red so I turned around and went into the nearest open fitting room and tried on the black and pink swimsuit first. I didn't even have time to look in the mirror because Crystal began to pound her fist on the door. When I opened it her eyes widened. "What? I look fat don't I?"  I guessed nervously. "No! Are you crazy?! You look fabulous! We are totally buying this" she proclaimed cheerfully. With a slight smile I walked back into the fitting and tried on the 'sexy' one as you could call it and before I got a look I walked out of the fitting room and Crystal's jaw dropped."That is so sexy! Oh my god! I think I like it better than the first! Lets go pay for them" she offered clapping her hands in joy.  "I can't wait for tomorrow! The weather is supposed to be amazing." she continued in glee. I nodded in fake agreement and we both walked to the cashier, me dreading for the following day to come.

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I'm sorry this chapter is short, it's been crazy at my house since my cousins coming over and I haven't had time to write but I promise that the next chapter will be longer. I'll do a double update if I get 100 reads so make sure to share, vote, and comment. I really would appreciate it.

This is dedicated to illyna16 for her spectacular cover that she made for me. She also helped me pick the new tittle. She is absolutely amazing and you all should go check her out sometime.

Xoxo Melanie ღ