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A Little Later in the Year

So this is a little later in the school year me and Sophia we usually hang out with each other at church. It was just a normal kind of thing she, lives right by the church so I would usually see it. Whenever she's not it's usually because she's sick. When I started to like her sort of blew those feelings off I didn't want to be like my old school. See, I like girls in my old school I wasn't going to let me let girls in my new school I wasn't going to let that happen the last time it didn't end good. See I did have a girlfriend before yeah I know I was young it's whatever we were actually best friends before that happened. We were playing truth or dare we were camping outside so it was just me and her she said "I dare you to let me kiss you." I thought she was joking so I said "sure go on ahead." And she leaned in and kissed me and after I didn't even say anything she felt that she messed up and she was sorry. But I ended up leaning in and kissing her again. We were both surprised and we said we were keeping a secret and keep a secret. But then her and her dad had divorce and she got really upset almost depression I think it was. So one day she was with her mom said that she was upstairs so I head up there. I reach her room I know her room is in the house because I usually come over at least 3 times a week. So I'm not going to door nobody came to it which was surprising so I thought she took a nap or fell asleep. So I walked in and there was a chair on the ground and there was a little note by the chair. It said look in the secret compartment so I did, so of course you guys can see what I seen she was hanging there I couldn't stop crying the whole entire time. So I went to her secret compartments, I found two notes one that said Mom and one that said Lizzy. I didn't read the moms know but I certainly took both of them just to give it to the mom. So I opened up my notes and I started to read I was just pretty much crying the whole entire time I couldn't help but think that it was my fault. She said she was sorry and she didn't want to be in this life anymore and I kept telling myself that was my fault. And it was I knew she was cutting and I didn't do anything if I weren't so stupid she would be alive now.

You know what I think that's enough for today. I guess I'll talk to you next time. Have a good day I guess.