this chapters song is: cut by plumb!!!!
Hey guys it's Raina aka kitty_goes_rawr12 and I hope you like this story(:
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I used to be a happy little girl, always outside with my friends, playing, laughing, enjoying life. That is until my mother passed away from cancer, I never knew what cancer was. when I was little I just thought of it as a bad cold that you could get rid of. Boy was I wrong...
My mother passed away when I was 10 years old. By then I knew what cancer was, it is a virus that is hard to get rid of. The doctors tried hard for mine and my fathers sake but, unfortunately my mother didn't make it, I still remember what she said to me before her heart rate went flat.
FLASHBACK
I sat in the white room watching t.v. With my mother when the show was over she turned it off and looked at me and grabbed my hand. I looked at her "mommy why are you crying" I asked scared "you are very beautiful baby girl" she said tears falling down her face, "mom what are you talking about" I said tears falling on my lap. "Mommy has to go away for a little while but please promise me you'll enjoy the rest of your life without me" she said I could hear the weakness in her voice "mommy please don't leave I love you" I said gripping her hand tight. "Mommy loves you baby girl" I heard the monitor slow down then a long beep her hand lost grip of mine and fell.
END OF FLASHBACK
It still haunts me... I really want my mother back but she wouldn't be proud of me...
Today's my 18th birthday and I'm going to VidCon, it's also the anniversary of my moms death..anyway my names Noah I've been struggling with self harm and depression for the longest time, I started the week after my mom passed.
I pulled up to my house and saw that my father was gone "oh no!" I screamed running into my room and packing for VidCon as I was putting my shoes and coat on I heard the front door open "no no, no, not again" I whispered. I grabbed my bag and ran towards the front door as I was about to grab the knob when I felt someone yank me back, I fell to the ground with a thud, I looked up to see my father smiling at me "why didn't you tell me you were home babe?" I got up and said "I'm not your babe I'm your daughter now I'll be leaving now" I moved toward the door I felt my father grip my wrist tight and throw me to the ground i screamed out in pain as i fell on my wrist twisting it.
I saw him start to undress himself, he was only in his boxers when he said "take your clothes of now" I disobeyed so he grabbed his knife and cut my dress open "stop please dad stop" I pleaded, all he did was smirk. He yank my dress off and dragged me upstairs and threw me on the bed and started kissing my neck "DAD STOP IT PLEASE!" I said crying he didn't listen he just pulled my underwear down. I started kicking until it felt a sharp pain in my leg I looked down to see his knife in my skin I finally gave up. After he was done I just laid there with a knife in my leg. Why should I even try?
A/N sorry this is a very short chapter i dont really have much ideas right now. well thanks for reading lovelys(:
peace~
