this chapters song is:
Baby don't cut by B-mike
NOAHS POV
i awoke in a white room that smelled like old people, great im in the hospital. i sat up carefully and looked around and saw joey and shane sleeping on the chairs, wait why was shane here? i can understand joey staying over night since he's like my big brother, but i barely know shane and he barely knows me. i looked at shane sleeping(not in a creepy way)and smiled he looked so cute when he slept. wait what are you saying noah snap out of it. i looked around for the tv remote since i was really bored i wanted to do something, i finally found it and turned the tv on to nickelodeon" and watched zoey 101.
a hour later i was drifting back into sleep until i heard someone gasp i looked up quickly and saw joey running up to my side. i smiled
"hey joey" ik said tiredly
he said nothing, there were tears running down his face.
"joey whats wrong?" i asked worried
"they said you werent gonna make it" he said smiling, i smiled back
"well they were wrong" i said sitting up, he chuckled and gave me a hug, i hugged back.
just then a nurse came in to check on me, she looked at me with wide eyes then said
"oh your awake" she smiled
i smiled back and looked at joey as he was waking up shane.
"so does anything hurt at all?" she asked politely i nodded
"my leg and wrist hurt badly" i said quietly
she smiled and handed me water and some pain pills i gladly took them and she left the room. i looked joey who was sitting next to shane, there was a awkward silence until joey jumped up and said. "well ill be right back i have to use the potty" i giggled and nodded as he left the room. i looked at shane and he looked at me in the eyes i looked down quickly and blushed.
"so how are you feeling?" shane said in a polite tone. i looked up and said
"to be honest i feel like total complete shit" i felt tear run down my face, i quickly whipped them away and looked down.
"noah why are you crying?" i heard shane ask sounding sad.
"im fine" i said still looking down.
i heard footsteps come my way then a hand softly grabbed my chin and lifted it up, i looked in to shanes beautiful eyes as he said
"Noah, a beautiful girl like you shouldnt be crying, now why are you crying" he whipped away a few tears that were on my cheeks. he let go of my chin and sat next to me, i sighed and started
"when i was 10 years old my mother was diagnosed with cancer, it was growing rapidly and then she passed away, later on i was diagnosed with depression, and anxiety, i was also self harming on my wrist, stomach , and thighs. my father starting drinking when i was 12 and started abusing me physically and...sexually, he blamed my mothers death on me. if i didnt do what i was told he'd cut me and beat me senselessly, i was bullied from grade 5 up to senior year for being different. and now here i am in this hospital bed."
i looked at shane with tears in my eyes, he also have tears falling down his face, all of the sudden shane engulfed me in a hug holding on tight.
"do you still self harm?" he asked, i looked down and nodded
"sometimes" i said he looked at and said
"promise me you won't do it again" he said quietly
"i promise" i replied
i felt him lift my head up again and we looked in eachothers eyes, then i felt a pair of soft lips againest mine i kissed back.
i heard someone walk in and then a loud
"WHAT THE HELL?!"
shit.
A/N haha sorry for the cliff hanger xD but love you guys, also the song for this chapter means a lot to me considering my ex-boyfriend dedicated it to me but soon broke up with me xc
eh oh well boys are stupid anyways xD
thanks for reading
peace~
