Obsession

Chapter 4

His room felt sticky and odorful. There were clothes every where and posters all over the wall. Carlos's room looked like a 5th graders bed room. Only a fifth graders mom would have made him clean his room. Also a fifth grader wouldn't have a book of naked women in his floor. I tried to kick my way through the room, not knowing what I might step on next. The room being disgusting was an understatement.

"Sorry for the mess," Carlos whimpered following behind me closing the door to his room. I don't know why he closed the door because I said I only needed to use the computer for a minute. Carlos frantically threw things off his bed and cleared a space for me to sit. His bed was a full size but the stuff covered up majority of it. I cannot believe Matt looked so highly at this slob. I slowly sunk into the bed realizing it was a water bed I screeched a little bit. Carlos looked at me worriedly. "Sorry, i forgot to warn you, uh yeah," he smiled and laughed. I began to chuckle to a little bit. He just looked uncomfortable when I laughed. Like I'd stuck him in the butt with a little pin. "What's wrong," I said looking at his worried face. He paused and just stared at me,"Nothing," he said. I could tell he was  lying but didn't Care enough to ask again. Instead I decided to get straight to business. "Come here," I said pointing to the bed next to me.  I was trying to get him to talk about Stewart. He nodded dumbly tripping over clothes to get to where I was. We both sat on the be  together as it balance d the weight difference. I just looked at Carlos. He had long hair like Stewart's but his was curly like a fry. He also had really nice Brown eyes but both like Stewart's. I don't know why I compared them.

"Carlos, can we talk?" I asked breaking the unwanted silence. Carlos shook out of his deep day dream and smirked a bit. " About Stewart ." I finished . His smirk turned into a dull face. "Stewart what do you know about him. " I asked smiling as the words left my mouth.  Carlos kind of scooted backwards. I know it was unexpected. "Stewart is like my best friend and he's a bit off." he said squeamishly. "a bit off?" Carlos looked down. I grabbed his face cupping it in my hands. He gave me a confused look once again. "How is he off," I said my hands on his face. He began to turn red like a tomatoes as I touched him.He seemed too confused to answer. "Carlos,"some one stole the words out of my mouth. I looked over to the door. Carlos's mom stood there smiling. I put my arms down from around his face realizing how wrong it looked. It seems like we were making out or something like that. Two teenage kids don't just sit on a water bed in a closed room to have a conversation do they. Well except me and Carlos. I couldn't think of a valid explanation to be  myself out of this mess.

We both just looked at his mom speechless. "Am I interrupting something?" she playfully asked. Still shocked I just stared. I expected to get kicked out but she just laughed about it. "Chill kid's I just came to tell that your homeless looking friend has arrived." Then Suddenly behind her, Stewart appeared. He looked so angelic. He perfectly symmetric face and sharp jaw line. I could feel the butterflies come back like an unwanted virus. I was still sitting on the bed with Carlos. He still seemed shocked. He was off like this the whole time I had came into his room . What was  up with him. I panikedly stood up. I felt gulilty sitting with Carlos while Stewart was in my presence. "well look at that." Stewart said walking in. I felt tense unable to stay still. If Carlos's mom thought we were doing something then Stewart did too. I could not think of the right words to say I felt like such an idiot there. I popped off the bed making a gross fart like noise and I walked toward the door Stewart had just entered. I looked back at Carlos who seemed to be still shocked. I was lost for words. I walked down the hall back to Tory's room. As soon as I walked in her room blasted with Latino music. Her room was blue and green. I quickly gathered my stuff. "I have got to run." I hurriedly said. She looked up from her magazine. "Why," she asked beginning to stand up. I felt so flustered and embarrassed I just wanted to leave before I could do anything else. The second time I see Stewart and this happens . This wasn't a good look for me. "Family emergency," I lied. Quickly I pushed back out the door. Carlos stood in the hall pacing around. He walked toward me and tried to speak but no words came out. I didn't know what words to say back. I just waved awkwardly. Tory came out the door right in between me and him. "Carlos move, we have to go." With that she grabbed my hand pulling me to the car. I felt relief and remorse leaving there house. The love of my life was in there. Even thought I really hated how everything was going at least I saw his angelic face. Tory's car roared quickly to my house. I tried to avoid eye contact with her. She probably would think I was such a creeper kissing her younger brother. I didn't though, I don't know why I felt so guilty, I did nothing wrong. I couldn't convince myself though. I felt as if I cheated on Stewart but we didn't even go out. Carlos was  in my grade yet I still felt like i would have stooped down my level if I was to ever kiss him. Which I wanted desperately not to do. It still made me feel pathetic even if it was just me and him behind closed doors. What if Tory thought I was hitting on her brother and that's the reason we had been friends. As if I just used her. The Car ride was silent. When I arrived it was almost dusk . I waved her off before going in. I knew I had to sneak back in and didn't want her to see me foolishly climbing in my window. I pulled  out my phone to text Matt to open my window.

Matt open - Megan

I waited til the window opened but it never did. I began to pace back and forth did he get caught I wondered. I couldn't help but worry. If I got caught . I would never get my phone back, or my freedom.

I'm not home-Matt

Omg what am I gonna do ?-Megan

My day had just gotten even worse. I couldn't handle anymore of this, I just wanted to go to my nice pink bed and sleep.

Then behind me I heard the front door creak open. I ran behind a bush studying who came out. To my surprise, Matt's curly head popped out and he was laughing at me. I rolled  my eyes and walked toward the door letting myself in. When I walked  in the kitchen seemed back to normal no signs of what happen earlier. "You are welcome," Matt said punching my shoulder. "You are an ass you know," I said smiling a bit. I had to admit he got me good. I slowly creeped upstairs to my room. Matt followed behind me playing a game on his phone. "What do you want," I asked annoyed . I had such a long day and wanted to rest. Matt put his phone down. "Did you do it ? " Matt asked. I was alarmed did news really travel that fast. I played  it cool though. "Do what exactly.." He smiled, "tell Carlos about me" . I let of a deep breath, "I will do it Monday." He looked defeated. He still paced around my room like a lost puppy. "Megan sit down I want to tell you something. " He said shakily. I laughed  a bit because I was already sitting down. "Are you okay," I asked still laughing. I began rapidly typing on my phone checking my face book and Twitter. I looked to see what'd I had missed. It seemed like not much. "Mom is sick." Matt said sternly. He was still here, why didn't he just leave. "I know mom's crazy and all but she's not mental." I replied looking at  my phone. Matt hit his head flustered,"this is so hard" I heard him mumble. He seemed mental himself. "Mom ... " He paused .I wanted to know what she said. I might have been grounded or something. I looked up at him seeing what the hold up was. He seemed flushed from color. He was clenching his fist tightly. "Mom has cancer." He blurted out.

His words hit me like a dager to the heart. How could he say this to me. I walked up angrily to him about to punch him in the face. His jokes were too much. I balled up my fist about to punch but I noticed he didn't even budged. There was a tiny tear coming from his right eye. Matt wasn't joking, he was dead serious. The strength that I had all day had suddenly vanished my legs got weak. I fell to my knees and tear rapidly fell out of me. I felt Carlos wrap his arms around me. That's when I thought back to how I acted this morning and how everyone seemed so sad. I felt like a total ass hole being selfish and sneaking out while my family held such a heavy burden. Tears poured out of me so much it was absolutely horrible. I was a disgusting mess. And even after all that happened to my family, I still thought about seeing Stewart again.