I was under water, with chains on my wrists and ankles dragging me down deeper, as I loose oxygen. I open my eyes only to see my mother below me pulling me down by the chains.
I quickly jolt awake breathing heavily like I had just ran a marathon. I look at the time
4:29 Am. There is no way I'm getting back to sleep, I get released from the hospital later today after being in here for about 3 days after I woke up.
I'm being sent to a therapist the day after u get released from here. I still have my own apartment, but I need to find a job. I can't believe I thought he could have actually loved me.
I'm so stupid. "It was good in the beginning but now I can't think of anything to write." Yep I'm writing a story, it's really bad though. I haven't let anyone read it because I was too scared of rejection of the only person who talked to me.
I got up and changed into some clothes my now ex boyfriend brought for me. That was before I yelled and made him leave, he never came back after that. I haven't been sad at all though and I don't know why. It's like a switch just turned off inside my head, in side my heart. It doesn't hurt anymore, nothing does except for that dream I just had about my mother. That wasn't the first time I've had that dream, every time something bad happens I have that dream. It's the most recent dream I've been having. But every time it's different, a different way she kills me. A different way she takes out that pain that she never got out because she committed suicide before she could kill me.
I don't know how to stop that dream, I don't know how to stop the pain that she is trying to pass on to me. But my body won't let me feel pain anymore. I'm numb. Maybe that's why I'm being sent to a therapist. I have to go there for two months or more depending on my mental health.
After I was released from the hospital I went back to my apartment and got some money to go to a cafè. It was one me and my best friend Serenity went to together. While I was making my way towards the entre of the cafè, I saw something that made me want to fall apart
It was Serenity
kissing my ex.
