My Story: A Love Like In The Books

Prologue: I'm Just Insecure

Nizie's POV

I've been in a relationship for the past few years, 33 months to be exact. I found myself geting lost in the love stories you can only read in books, the pure passion, lust, and love that nobody could take away. Why couldn't I have that? Thirty-three months and the passion hadn't even been comparable to the way I found in the books I had been reading. But why? Why could a simple small town girl have a story book love?

Because Niz reality does have true and unforgettable love. Don't get me wrong I love Chris we've been together almost three years...Do I really though? Well I think I do.

He makes me feel okay I guess. I've never thought of myself as pretty let alone beautiful and when he told me those things I would accuse him of lying and he wouldn't deny it. I have long hair, I mean it reaches to the top of my jeans, piercing hazel eyes covered by thick black frames, and I have the most crooked smile. I struggled with accepting my weight and my height. My boyfriend doesn't make me feel special or maybe I'm just insecure?

I want someone who makes me feel like the most beautiful princess in the world but that will never happen, so I read to escape my insecurities and put my self in the position as the one falling into an unforgettable love. I just it was actually me for once rather than just settling for just under average. hopefully one day I can put my foot down and find my geek in sweats that's nerdy and a total sweetheart instead of settling for that dirtbags that just try to get in my pants. I lost my virginity in tenth grade to Chris, so that meant even though I wasn't pretty everybody wanted to try and fuck me. I'm graduated, of to bigger and better things, I cat let average hold me back. Its time.