Lost but Found

New Feelings

Once the terrible pain ended which felt like it had lasted all the time in the world he finally pulled out satisfied with himself and pulling his pants back up.He heard him gulp down something before throwing it on the floor with a loud thud, he came closer to me and kissed my head before blind folding me and letting my right hand loose holding it behind my back as he reached for the left hand and binding them together with tape.He repeated the process with my legs like he has done this many times which wouldn't surprise me at all considering of the way the things seemed.

"Try to run or hurt me and ill crack a bottle against your fucking head got it" He screamed at me in my ear and I nodded letting him lead me to what I hoped was freedom.I heard a screen door open than I felt a breeze against my body still naked and than he pushed me into the back of a car slamming the door.He got into the drivers seat and started the engine than the tires screeched as he speed-ed off and I laid there thinking maybe this is the end a horrible death to match a horrible birth.15 minutes later he stopped and he got out the car and opened my door pulling on my arm dropping me on the street than just like a doll rolled me into a brick wall that smelled like dog poo.

I heard foot steps walk away than tires than in silence I laid shivering on the cold ground, I opened my mouth to yell but I only let out a small yelp as I started to cry.I sobbed and kept trying to scream for help with the rag still in my mouth when I heard a door open and foot steps I started too kick and yell.

"What the hell" A male voice said "Hello?" he asked towards me.

"Mmmhhh!" I mumbled kicking again and banging my head against the wall trying to make noise.

"Ohh shit" He said taking off my blind fold and took the rag out of my mouth and taking a piece of glass from the floor and cut the tape from my arms and feet.

"Thank you" I said as he grabbed my elbow getting me to stand on my feet, he pulled his shirt off helping me put it over my naked body.

"Are you okay" he asked me walking me trough an open door that lead to a kitchen that was empty and the only light I could see was camera.He flicked the switch on and my eyes shut quickly as I tried to adjust them.

"Do you need to call someone?" I finally payed attention to the features of the boy that looked about 16 years old and he had hazel gorgeous eyes and he had the most beautiful skin tone complexion.

"Ugh I.... need.....to go home" I said the best I could and he stared at me with his gorgeous eyes and I just stood there waiting for a response.

"I can give you a lift I was closing up here anyways when you know I found you" he mumbled putting his hand behind his head.

"Thanks" I said stuck on his words, "I found you" he had said in a way that gave me such an explainable comfort.

"Are you straight?" he said gazing at me "Yea I just need to go home" I responded following him out the door.

He locked the door and walked me to his car, he opened the passenger seat for me and I sat down while he closed the door."To where?" he asked me turning the engine on.

"Umm I don't know where I'm at" I said looking around not recognizing anything "If you drive Old hermitage I can lead you from there."

"Gotcha" he said getting into the road and I sat there trying to not close my eyes because I hated the flash backs.

"So like umm what happened to you? You look kinda you know fucked up" He said turning to look at me because the light was red and the roads where empty.

"I..... Umm......" I stumbled out tears gathering in my eyes as my bottom lip quivered."Well?" He asked more confidently and I turned to face the window not wanting him to see me.

"Don't worry bout it" I mumbled whipping my tears away with my hand.

"Turn here onto this street and make a left than right on the first parking lot" I said recognizing my neighbor hood.

"Thanks" I said and and opened the door trying to leave before I started to cry in front of him.

"If you need anything I work at the Pizza Inn on college Dr! Ask for Dantanner!" He yelled behind me and I waved my hand back to let him know I heard him.

I knocked on the door trying to open it but it was locked and I grunted kicking it before I walked to my window hoping it was unlocked.The window creaked slightly as I pulled up and went smoothly after that so I climbed in landing on some cloths,the first thing I wanted to do was take a shower as if that was going to wash away the past.I ripped off the shirt and turned on the water I avoided the mirror because I didn't want to see what had happen to me.I took a long shower scrubbing all the parts of my body leaving it red and blotchy.I washed my hair and rinsed than repeated going through it while some of my hair fell out because of the force used before.I got dried and changed into a tank top and some night shorts brushing my hair and than braiding it still without the mirror.I laid in my bed sitting there thinking and repeated the awful scene over and over again.I sobbed quietly but not of sadness but of anger because I wanted to blame someone for what had happened to me.I knew that there was no one I could blame for what was done but I longed so much just to go back and stopped it but it was too late.It was always too late, too late to have used a condom for me to not be born,too late for my mother to not be a drug dealer,too late to see my father for once.But mostly it was too late for me too have not looked into Dantanners eyes.

The next morning felt like id been hit by a bus because my back ached with pain and my arms were sore.I didn't feel like going to school and my mom wasn't home so I decided not to go I just wanted to lay in my bed crying and listening to music but I had lost my phone and my bag so I couldn't.I sat there thinking of how my life was ruined of how much anger and regret I held against the man who did this to me.I hated him with this new anger id never felt before that boiled every time I thought of him even though I didn't know him I hated him with all my heart.

Finally I controlled my anger and I sat there just muted like the world had shut me out and I was looking at myself through a screen not from my eyes.I got up though because I had to get ready and act like that night never occurred because things like this don't happen to me because I'm perfect.I closed my eyes walking to the bathroom carefully feeling the walls to get to the bathroom,I stood there by the sink hesitant to open my eyes.

"One....two....three" I counted down and gasped at my face.