Opened my eyes, turned the lights on, it's 4:00 am in the morning, I gotta wake up at 7:00,
I don't feel like sleeping, but I don't feel like staying awake, my mind feels strange, I turn to the right, cover myself, turn the lights off and try to sleep.
I knew that I wasn't going to sleep right away, since everytime I close my eyes I get these floaty thoughts about the things I'm trying to neglect, I get reminded of what's to come, what I'm missing out on, what Im supposed to to be doing and what I'm doing instead, but I remain unbothered and try to sleep it off.
Waking up at 4:00 am was at first a burden cause it would ruin my sleep schedule, but since it started happening a lot lately, I took advantage of it and actually used it for my own good,
Since it didn't matter when I slept, I started sleeping early, knowing I'd wake up at 4:00 am to start off my day.
The strange thing is, before I'd wake up, the only thing I'd always remember from my dreams is a little bird, a litte black bird that I would notice everytime before I woke up. I thought maybe cause I keep thinking about it it keeps appearing in my dreams, but I knew when it happened constantly that I had to get used to it.
I'm quite an imaginative person, I believe I have a pretty vivid imagination, I'm daydreaming most of the time, I hadly ever feel grounded and I would rather spend more time thinking than speaking.
After a continuous loop of the dreams for about 2 months, I was finally able to sketch something a little bit close to the bird I keep having visions about.
