Phat Love For.....

Departure

It's  been a long 3 years since me and my kids seen Mario. It was for the best, I mean... Sj and I are not together. We grew to understand that what we was doing was a sin and we was just young. Anyway I'm graduating this year. I'm so proud of myself. My babies are my life even when I wanted to give up, I stuck it and here I am. Going to college and I get to stay on campus thanks to my mom. I'm really grateful and I really feel as tho my life is getting better... For once.

        "You ready girl!" My bestfriend Jasmine ask. Yes we made it this far as friends.
      "Yea girl." I said looking down. I can't believe it. I almost cried.
      "What's the matter bitch.? You about to graduate! This should be the happiest damn day of your life." She said hugging me. I look over to see my babies playing on the floor by my mom and dad. I did it for them. Yes I did..

* After Graduation *
So The day after graduation, really didn't do much but went shopping. That all I do. Damn money be gone two days after the my paycheck come of it was up to me. I was walking into forever 21 when I heard something familiar.
     
      " Ayy girl, come here! Wait up.!"  A deep voice called. Now I know I ain't smokin dick. Mario.. I turn around and sure enough, his ass.
   Y'all may not know it but this nigga neglected OUR kids ! He didn't want nothing to do with them after I left. Ain't that some shit. Then of course he got married to that bitch Nae. Make me sick. He had nerve man. Days woo spent my last to buy kids food and days when me and my kids went almost a two weeks without lights and food. I can't with him. Not right now.

   " Whatchu want Mario" I said speed walking in forever 21.
    " I heard you graduated, kind of a surprise to me. That's good though, I'm proud of you " he said with a smirk. What do he really mean by 'surprise '.?
   "Hold up. What you mean 'surprise'? You didn't think I can do it.? Why.? Because I'm working doubles to take care of  Jai and also and still pay rent.?" I said with one on my hip. My friend was calling me to come back to where he was but I wasn't hearing it.
     "You know how it is Tierra.. I asked you over and over if you need help and you said no and blocked me every chance you got. I want to see my babies.Facetime once a month not cutting it." He said shrugging his shoulders.
        "You didn't answer me! And anyway if you didn't go Pro you wouldn't have anything you got! Soon as you hit Tv you for got about the babies. Us... The world don't even know you have two beautiful children. You threw reality away for fame. That ain't right and you know it." I said lowering my head. He knew I was crying. He looked away to a voice calling him. I knew who it was.. Nae
    "Babe.. There you are.." She said kissing him not paying me no mind.
   "Oh Tierra.. How you doing ?" She said eying me up and down.
    "I'm good bitch, how about yourself.. Oh wait, I really don't give a damn" I said ready to strike her in her bougie ass head.
    " Can some one get this rude peasant out of my face" she said waving me off. This bitch. I know not. I start taking off My heals and threw one at her. Luckily it land at the back of her head. Touch Down!
   " What's wrong with you. Hitting my wife like that tf." He said pushing me really hard that I fumbled a bit.
    " I HATE YOU!" I said echos filled the mall and everyone watched. I cried in my hands until my friends came and pulled me away.
   Next thing I knew we was in the car driving home.
    " Why does he do that! After everything I endured with him! The pain I've went through! It's not fair ! It's not faaair!" I screamed kicking and punching.
    "Bitch come down. Baby girl, that's his lost. Blessings that will never be as special as you and those babies. Sometimes you just have to let people miss you-*gcco* " It's been 3 years and i miss him, I want him back" I sobbed..
   " I know girl. But it's going to be okay. God brought you way to far. It's time to let go, even if you don't want to. It's a mind thing. You have to train it. Believe me, you mind and heart have the realist beef when it comes to love." Sebastian said while shaking his head.