The Fault In Our Stars *Epilogue*

Chapter 1

It has been 3 weeks since Augustus's funeral. I am sitting outside in my backyard staring at the place were our swing set used to be. The sky seems to be the same as that day. Dreary and sad. A tear runs down my cheek as my heart starts to ache at how much I want him here with me. I can't help but think about how our little infinity could have lasted longer. It seems too far away now with him gone. Everything does.

Suddenly I hear my mother call me into the house. I wipe away my tears and push myself off the pale green grass. I pull up the handle on my breathing machine and walk inside. My mother and father pull me inside and set me down at the table. "What is it?" They both look at each other and then back at me. "Mom?" The look of confusion starts her talking. "Honey the doctor called today" dad interrupts "and they want to know if.. if" "If what?" I exclaim frustrated. "If you want to get surgery to transplant your lungs for Augustus's!" My mother blurts out. I don't say anything.. I can't. Augustus's lungs? Are they insane? All I can get out is "No" "But honey this could save your life." My mother starts, almost on the verge of crying. "Those are his lungs and everything has already been taken away from him. I can't take anything more.." I break off trying to keep my tears under control. I get up swiftly and run up to my room dragging my breathing machine with me. "Hazel!" I hear my mother yell after me but I don't care. I lock my door behind me and drop to the floor behind the door so I can catch my breath. It doesn't help that my crying takes over making it harder to breath. After about 20 minutes of me getting myself under control I get up and get my phone. I sit on the bed and open iMessage. I start to read Augustus's messages. These make me feel better. Sometimes I text the number having the feeling he still reads them. In reality I know he doesn't but it's still nice to dream for the impossible. I put my phone down and put my covers on. I try to sleep but sleep does not come. All I can think about was Augustus Waters..