Girlish-Boyish

Prologue

A few years ago...

There was no point on arguing with the fact that I was so not in the mood of talking to anyone, I stood alone under the the big Blue Oak tree, in the huge backyard of our mansion, that swayed with the cool Autumn ocean breeze that tinged the air with the smell of sage and sea salt. I shivered, hugging my cold body that wore nothing but a swimsuit that fit so well in the wrong places I didn't much appreciate.

I had been swimming in the pool so long that my fingers were all wrinkly from staying the in water , and I nervously chewed on my nail , that slowly began to bled...but I didn't mind. It was just a drop nothing serious at all.

I was actually waiting for Ander to come back from fishing with my dad... I still wasn't familiar with that word 'dad' , seemed alien like, not like my biological father cared about me...

All I wanted to do was to clear my thoughts and swimming didn't help that much...made me nervous and worry about him more.

Does he feel the same way too or does he hate me ?

I gulped. Thinking about him was making it worse of all days why would he ever go fishing when he was just way too soft...more like a girlish kind of soft.

Feminine. Ander was definitely feminine. Maybe he was avoiding me , he knows I like him.

"What are you doing?", asked Ander who had appeared from behind the tree.

"You fuckin scared me dude", I said punching him on his arm with enough force to knock him down but he took the blow and stood firm like the tree behind me.

It was really funny, not so long ago was I noticeably taller than him and I used to tease him a lot about it. But now all those boyish features were all gone , replaced with a more stronger, angular jawline and his chest was broader than usual. Maybe he was taking weights and the thought of me running my hand down his tan chest made me blush even more.

Am I the only one noticing these changes on him?

"Oh really? I thought I only gave you the spills not the chills ", he chuckled, tucking my wet dark brown curl behind my left ear. At first it made me think about his action...something about it was not a thing a brother would surely do.

"So how was fishing?", I asked looking away, avoiding those piercing beautiful eyes hidden by thick golden eyelashes. I had to admit , I had a soft spot for his eyes, especially the way they would simply melt my heart away.

Very much like Ander , to easily make me blush

"Was great...Luckily the sea wasn't rough today but I have something to show you", he said , the corners of his mouth crinkling into a crooked grin. "But first you have to close your eyes ."

I nodded to his orders and as I closed my eyes I felt his calloused hands working along the way of the cool metal and locking it around my neck. "You can open them now", he said and to my surprise I ran my hand onto the tear drop shaped sapphire stone that now hung around my neck.

"It's beautiful!", I exclaimed excitedly wrapping my hands around him around his neck and he only smiled before placing his lips on mine and began kissing me so passionately that it broke my heart knowing that I couldn't have him.

He tasted like the same way as his scent.

Fresh citrus and jasmine. How delicious. And guilt hadn't yet settled in.

For those very seconds in his arms time seemed to stand still as if the world was never going to accept this...

And from that day we were never going to be the same again .