she had read on that website and followed its up until the whole starving or purging thing that was too dangerous for her - after all she only needed to lose about 5 pounds and she had done it. so she was okay now.
her room was dimly lit as she pulled up her dark navy dress. it fit perfectly. a rush of energy and excitement fled through her body she felt so confident and pretty. her makeup was done and she was ready.
emma didn't have a boyfriend to be her date. however she and her friends were going to have a good time anyways. she had invited her three friends amy, ava, and mia to go out with her to the emerald palace which was a club that did clubbing for over 15's and under 20's.
at around 5, whilst on their way to the car emma's eyes caught the eye's of her ex-best friend luke. they had known each other since they were about 4 and met in primary, but once he turned 14 he decided to not talk to her again and become popular which broke emma's heart of course.
but who needs boys when you've got your best friends ?
throughout the night emma had laughed and laughed with her friends and overall had a great time when suddenly it was time for food.
she remembered the feeling of pure excitement when she lost the five pounds and then looked at her friends. they were all pretty. and skinny.
perfect.
that's what they were.
the five pounds were good but if she looked like her friends she'd feel better so maybe another five ?
yes another five.
"emma!"
she snapped out of thought. "hm?".
"oh you were totally thinking about someone, who's the lucky guy?" mia smirked.
"oh it's not a guy i was just thinking about what food to get. what are you guys getting ?" she replied smoothly.
"i'm getting a pizza for sure" mia said gripping the pizza menu as if it were her child.
"SAME HERE" amy shouted walking back from the toilets.
"ava what about you ?" emma questioned. ava was the skinniest so she wanted to know what she ate.
"oh i'm thinking carbonara and garlic bread - you know it's my favourite em" she smiled.
emma grinned at her. she forgot. every birthday they've all ever had had been at that restaurant and every time ava got the same thing.
"of course! i think i might get a salad i'm not that hungry to be honest. anyone know if they're good ?" emma asked hoping they were.
"yeah they're actually so good i got one when i came here with max" amy replied. it was her and max's one year anniversary last month.
"oh, thanks" emma said her head in the menu. there were cesar salad, chicken salads, pork salads - every type of salad.
quickly, she searched for the lowest calorie salad as she saw the waitress come closer. she was the last to order and when she did the waitress gave her a strange look as if to say 'you're so fat you might aswell eat shit' emma sunk in her seat and waited for her plain garden salad to come.
she finished before anyone else and remembered the ana rule: 'don't finish before anyone to show self control'
so once again she sunk in her set and let the night go by ...
woop woop
i think that was an okay chapter right ?
anyways i found this model who's called charli howard and is a size 6-8 and her last modelling agency said she was too heavy. so she dropped to a size two which , for her body type, was dangerously low. she realised this and put on the weight and left them. props to her.
i feel like she fits the character as the character starts off a healthy weight which there's lots of healthy pictures of charli then once she loses there's pictures of her underweight and it just fits so. yeah.
*also i do have an ed let's not get into that though*
here's pictures of her :
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