ⅅⅈՏᗅՏᝨℰℛ • ᵗʰᵉ 3ʳᵈ

• 77 • a chapter where i just ramble

I find it hilarious how I try too hard to be interesting, but I just end up being weird or no one understands what I say in the process. Like, I reference a lot of irregular stuff that I've learned of on YouTube, or at school, or even other websites. Then I put my thoughts abt them on here and expect at least one person to get it, but no one ever does. Haha....

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I am desperate to be interesting and intellectual, that it just comes off as stupid, and no one can tell me otherwise. But then again, it's kind of fun to confuse people, to be knowledgeable about something no one esle I know is....

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Also, I try to sound extemporaneous when I write, in order to seem normal, but at the same time, I wanna be really formal. That's why I have the "abt"'s and the "gonna"'s and "wanna"'s, along with lengthy and punctilious words (there I go again), and it sounds really outlandish to me.

The price to pay to sound ordinary, but engaging and smart at the same time.

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Lol I don't know why I put this here. I just really need to get this out.

(I'll regret and delete this later, won't I?)

Goodbye~