The Catori diaries: 1st book : shattered pain

Chapter one.. Death and pain..

Intro..

Hello my name is Catori Angela Bitterwood I live on my own, and I only have my home and my books to keep me company ... It's scary thinking about how life will go on without me and how everyone will be there yet they won't know that I'm waiting, they won't know that I am watching and they will not know my pain ...I am Catori the spirit that sees everything and knows everything... And this is my long and sad after life ...

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P:1 pain

Pain is shattering to us,

yet it shall not prevail,

For it is not there,

When we all stare ,

For it lies within,

Our souls and minds,

For it is hidden,

From mankind ,

We are floating souls,

Spirits of old,

Figments of the imagination ,

Who knows ,

Will we stay ,

Or will we go..

No one truly knows,

For the pain it shatters ,

Our souls..

Chapter one....

Catori's diary P.O.V

Todays date is the 4/1/12 . So much time has past and so little has been done, funny all I can think about is reading and writing yet another thought "haunts" me.. I keep thinking when will I get to be ravished in the light..

When will I be able to see all my ancestors smiling faces, when will I get to meet Elvis,yes Elvis ha ha yeh I know and when will I get to just be happy not alone and filled with so many invisible tears...

As a spirit you would think it would be easy to just turn of your humanity, but that's the thing I'm pure energy something that holds so much emotion it hurts..

So I'm sitting on my favorite leather chair in my huge library, writing about how life is playing out hah how pathetic ..yet how calming it is to just write down all my woes with out sharing them to anyone...

So how did I get to this point how did I become so miserable that I want to just die again..well it all started on a very rainy and dark night....

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Catori's P.O.V

Typical yet again they leave me all alone at home while there's a storm outside, why can't they at least let me go with them to there so called 'meetings' once in a while...

I mean come on I am only like how old , 16 years old to be exact and they think I wouldn't want to go out with them at least once..

I swear my parents are blind sometimes they just don't see how much I wish for them to just hang with me or even talk to me longer then five minutes...

Maybe they just don't love me that could be a reason, or maybe it's because I am just me simple Catori with her long and wavy raven black hair and her piercing light blue eyes that scares off everyone oh and her white as a ghost skin ...

Am I just too ugly they just don't want to be seen with me...?

I guess I'm not pretty or even beautiful if they would think that.. Sigh* life sucks and all it's little things to..!!!

I slump down on my favorite leather chair as I let a few tears escape my eyes.. As the tears fall down my cheeks I can't help but feel this hole a absent hole and it seems like nothing can fill it..

I wipe the tears off my cheeks and decide to get ready for bed..

I quickly run up to my bedroom making sure to bring my favorite red candle that I always bring around everywhere in this house with me..

Soon I get to my room, my room is pretty old looking it's like one of those rooms you see duchess sleeping in, the very old and simple yet elegant ones I mean..

Soon I take off my simple clothes and I grab my white night gown.. It seems like everything in this house is old fashioned even some of my clothes ..

As I grab the night gown I head off to the shower...

After a nice soothing shower I dry my long hair and let the wavy curls tumble down past my hips..

Soon I've finish brushing my hair I am about to tie my hair up but I decide not to so I put my hair tie on my left wrist, then I turn to look at myself in the mirror, I nod knowing this is the best I can do for getting ready for bed..

I really do admire my night gown though, it's so simple yet beautiful with it's white floral design which winds all around the top of the dress and the dress also flows all around loosely and perfectly, and the sleeves go down to the beginning of my elbow and are also loose and baggy leaving space for my arms to do what ever..

The gown also goes down to the floor making me warm around my legs, soon I start heading for my big queen bed, as I am about to lay the blankets over me a loud 'CRASHING' sound makes me jump out of my skin..

"What the hell." I say as I wonder what the heck that was, so being my usual curios self I ended up throwing my blankets fully off of me and I then start slowly descended down the wooden stairs, but what was waiting down stairs was something I was not expecting...

As I made way back into my library I look around and as for it being dark it makes it hard for me to see as much as I like.. luckily I remembered to bring my red candle but it's light still didn't help that much..

As I make it to my leather chair I look up at the window I squint as I look at it, as I do that I see the white curtain blowing with the wind, and the window itself broken into many pieces on the floor..

...what the.. Okay now if I was to say I wasn't freaked out that would be a lie..

As I was about to go upstairs to go call someone a very large hand covers my mouth, making me drop my red candle.

As I try to scream and kick and even punch the man I'm guessing, another large hand starts to hold my throat making it hard to breathe..

As I try to kick again I realize that I am losing oxygen and my eyes are feeling quite heavy, actually thinking about that I'm feeling quite tired as well, so as I'm trying to think of what is happening my brain freezes, but with my last strength and will I try to slash at the hand but I realize I am a lost cause so it's too late for I can feel myself giving up, as I feel myself start to fall into the darkness I hear something that nobody would ever want to hear..

"Say hi to mummy for me will ya." A very familiar gruff voice says to me and then with my last breathe I start falling into the black abyss of nothingness..

A/n..

Hey guys this is the first chapter I know short right well this is a taster so read and comment what you think okay that's all my lovelies better be off now haha "angel out"....