Shawn Mendes Imagines

Without her

A/N - Warning: There are some parts that refer to Y/N getting cancer, so if you are sensitive to the subject skip or read with caution. I don't want to upset or offend anyone. Thank you x

On the pier I sat ,thinking. In my hand , a bottle with a liquid that held a strong, bitter , sour taste. Trying. Just trying to forget. To numb the pain.

Under the fading light, the darker it got, the less sour liquid there was, The lighter I felt.

The last time I was here was when I was 10. Right now , that feels like an eternity away. I used to come here, to the lake, all the time with my family. But now , the house is just sitting here.

She was too young. She had everything but then had nothing.

Sometimes things take valuable objects away from you. Just like how it took away my best friend. My girlfriend. My everything. It was so tiny. But , the bigger it grew, the smaller she was. The stronger it got, the weaker she became.

I couldn't take it and was blaming the people that didn't deserve it. The people who couldn't do anything.

Birds screeching among the silence broke me out of my thoughts. Out of some sort of trance or daze.

The view isn't clear to me. Much like where I'm going next, or who I'm going to be. Everything has changed. Everything is different.

Everything is lost.

I am lost.

Without her.