New Girl // Evan Peters

Part Two
Evan

Chapter 6

She is so beautiful. I have never met anyone like her. Why did I fuck up so bad last night? What the fuck was I thinking?

I am looking at her and she is so close to me. I wish I could tell her that all I'm thinking about is pulling her in and kissing her gently and then hard core make out with her. I want to tell her that I'm crazy about her. I mean I make it obvious, but does she feel the same way? She talks to me and Ashton the same way. Does she like me the way that I like her? I hope she does. I'm usually one to play girls, and I know that, but Alaska, woah is she different. I've never met a beautiful, outgoing, cool, girl like her. But I wish I could tell her my biggest secret. But no one can know, only Ash. I mean I don't do it anymore, but I don't want her to find out. It's too much for her to handle. As I'm thinking about all of this I realise that Alaska is talking to me about something else and I realised that i zoned out.
I just smile at her while she continues talking.

Later ( As in like 9:00 P.M. ) we're laying down on her couch watching The Vampire Diaries, only because it's one of her favourite tv shows when I turn to her and say "Alaska I should get going now, it's getting dark outside." She replies, "Don't go."
Me: "But if I leave later my mom will hear me sneak in."
"Can't you spend the night here and tell her you crashed at Ash's?"
Me: "Uhm. I guess I can do that. Won't your mom disapprove?"
"Welllllll, she doesn't have to know. She rarely pays attention to me and doesn't check up on me at night so you'll be fine :)"
Me: " Welllll Alaska, I guess I'm staying"

Why the fuck am i so nervous? I've stayed over at plenty of girls houses to know what to do so i don't get caught. Maybe I'm not worried about her mom, maybe something else is bothering me, and I know exactly what it is.