Alone...

Chapter 1

I've been walking for hours... I'm not even sure where I'm going anymore. As long as it's away from home, away from the person I love... I'll be happy.
I take a look at my watch and see it's 1am, I look around and try to figure out where I am. All I see is darkness apart from the street light a few meters back and some small houses that still have lights on.
"Seems like I walked all the way to the west side of town." I think to myself. "Perfect, hopefully I can remember where she lives" I keep walking.
I walk for 20 more minutes before I reach the house of the one person who I know I can trust. Her lights are still on, I knock a few times and wait for her to answer the door.
"Luna? Is it really you?! I thought you died!" My friend Maddi tells me as she tackles me in a hug, "how did you get here? Did Elliot drive you?" She pulls away and looks me in the eye waiting for an answer.
"I walked here..." I mumble and look at the ground, "please don't say his name okay?" I tell her.
"Okay, well why don't you come in and then you can tell me everything okay?" She hugs me again quickly before turning around and walking into the house, with me following after her.
We both sit on the couch, we sit in silence for awhile before i break down into tears. Tears I've been holding back cause I hate showing emotion.
"Hey hey hey, it's okay Luna." Maddi pulls me into her, "Wanna talk about it?" She asks as she rubs my back.
I shake my head and just cry on her shoulder. Back when Maddi and I were always together she'd usually be the one crying and I'd be the one comforting her. I guess times have changed. Or maybe it's the fact that for the first time in years I can't hide my emotions.
"Let's get you some new clothes and all warmed up okay?" She asks.
I look at my clothes. I didn't even notice that it was raining. I think to myself.
I give Maddi a nod and stand up and go to the bag I had with me. I grab the spare clothes I had and started heading to the spear bedroom that I know all too well. I used to come here whenever I needed to get away. Usually my brother would drive me here or my boyfriend...
I placed my clothes on the empty bed and slowly started to remove my wet ones. I walk over to the mirror and look at myself. My grey eyes seem darker, red rimmed from crying, my blue and purple hair was a mess, you could see my bones under my skin, yet I still feel fat, you could see the bruises from my dad, you could see the cuts on my wrists, you could see all my scars...
no wonder he left me... I'm hopeless... I wasn't good enough...
I grab my clothes and slip them on quickly. Not too soon after Maddi comes in and gives the a blanket and pillow along with my phone and headphones.
"I'll let you get some sleep okay? You know where my room is if you need me." She gives me another hug before leaving the room and closing the door after her. I open my phone to see I have 37 missed calls and 50+ new messages. I don't even bother to look at them. I plug in my earbuds and open the music app on my phone and select the NF playlist. I'll keep on starts and I lie on my bed listening to music. Even though I know I have Maddi here, I still feel so Alone...