Alone...

Chapter 2

I didn't sleep, I stared at the ceiling for hours. There were so many things going on in my head. Memories flashing before me. I wish I could go back to those days, the days where I was an energetic little girl and people were nice to me, I didn't worry about the way I looked, I didn't worry about people putting me down, I didn't have to worry about guys or my family, or the bullies. The days where I was okay...
I don't even hear when Maddi comes in. The thoughts are so loud that not even the music can drown them out. Maddi shakes me a bit. I pull out my earbuds and sit up.
"Did you sleep at all?" She asks, "actually don't answer that I think I know the answer already. Anyways it's almost 10 and I need to get to work, there is food in the fridge, you know where the shower is and you can borrow some of my clothes, will you be okay on your own?" She tells me so much it takes me a second to process everything.
"Ya I think I will be. What time do you get back?" I question.
"Around 6. I will bring back takeout for dinner so don't worry about making anything." She smiles.
I give her a nod showing I understand. She gives me a hug before walking out, leaving me all alone once again.
I put my earbuds back in and go to my voicemails.
"You have 23 new messages. Press 1 to play-" before it can continue I click the number 1 on the keypad.
"New message from Elliot... Luna please answer my calls I'm worried... next message. Luna we need to talk... next message... I'm sorry Luna, please just answer I'm really worried..." I hang up before the next message can play. I can't listen to him anymore. Not after what he did.
I get up from the bed, leaving my phone where I was, I go to the bathroom and start the shower so it can warm up. I quickly cover up the mirror and take off my clothes before getting in the shower. The feeling of the warm water running down my back calms me. I wish the water could wash away everything. I mean in a way it does but only for a little bit... I wash my hair and stand in the warm shower for a bit longer. I turn the shower off and step out immediately feel the cold air, I grab a towel and wrap it around myself feeling a little less cold. I go to Maddi' room finding it surprisingly clean for once. I grab a sweater and a pair of sweatpants and go back to the washroom to change. I uncover the mirror and start to do my hair, throwing up into a messy wet bun. I put the dirty clothes in the hamper before going to the kitchen. I get a glass of water and an apple and go back to 'my room'. My phone starts to ring which scared me a bit with the noise. I don't bother looking at the contact I already know who it is. I answer the phone, feeling like I have no other choice.
"H-hello?" I stutter a bit, I'm scared to talk to him.
"Thank god you answered." I hear him sigh, "where have you been I've been worried sick."
"I'm just staying somewhere for a bit, you can keep the place, I'll come pick up my stuff once I find a place of my own okay?" I sound like a child asking for permission to go to a friends house or something.
"Luna listen I'm sorry that I broke up with you okay? I'm just not stable and I'm so stressed with work and I feel like I have to do everything in the relationship." Elliot tells me.
"I don't want to hear it, you gave up cause it got hard. I knew this would happen so it doesn't matter." My voice was low I'm almost surprised he heard me.
"Luna I still love you and I probably always will..."
"If you loved me you wouldn't give up when things get hard, you'd stay and try to figure something out instead of leaving!" I snapped.
"Luna you're the one who walked out of the house and went god knows where!"
"Goodbye Elliot..." I hang up the phone before he could say something to stop me.
Tears start to roll down my face. I put my music on and curl into a ball. I try to get him out of my mind but he won't leave. It's like he is torturing me, ripping my heart apart even more then it already was...