I Dont Love You.

The Date.

Today, I get to meet the guy I have to marry. I don't think we will be happy together. I love FC and that is final . No one can change my feelings. I would fall in love with this guy. He seems to confident with this idea of getting married. But he seems like he's faking it. I don't think I'm the only one not happy here. I don't know how how this will go. So far , it is going horrible. I don't think I like him. I hope he has a better part of him. No one can be better then FC. He is the only on that will make me happy.

He even gave me melted chocolate. Like at least try some romance out. My life is going to be horrible. Such a bad soon to be husband. Why are we forced to do this? I don't wanna leave FC . He seemed really upset when I told him. He acted happy for me. I knew him for 8 years I know when FC is lying he is very upset. I wish I could do something but I cant. All I can do is let it happen. Nothing will stop this. I wish I didn't have to do this. This is one of the times that life is not fair. When you don't need something good to happen it happens but when I want something good to happen it never ever does. 

The "Date" is over and all I can say is finally. I'm already bored of that guy. He is so quiet. As I said I hope he has a better side to him. A nice side , a side I could love him for. But I thing he is just a loner in all ways.