You Never Walk Alone

our story: novhyung

Nova's POV

how we became friends:

it was the first day of third grade.

i was sitting alone in the corner of the class, writing in my journal. you were flocked by all the kids. you left them to join me in my lonely spot. I looked up.

"why are you here? are you here to tease me or to bully me?" i asked with a cold glare. 

"none of the above. i'm here to become your friend." you replied.

i was shocked to be honest. you were so nice to me, unlike all the "friends" i've had before. you introduced me to your twin sister, who was in another class. she became my best friend and introduced me to her friends. 

how i had a crush:

it's now 9th grade. we've been friends for six years now. i've noticed the small changes in your behavior. you stopped hanging out with us that often. but every single time you glanced my way, i felt butterflies in my stomach. what is this feeling i kept asking myself. it was a crush. over time it developed into something else, love...

i kept looking at you, and every time you noticed and looked at me, i looked away. i was hella embarrassed. 

when you asked me out:

it's tenth grade now. The Winter's Ball is coming up and it's boys ask girls. you still didn't have a date, but so many girls were begging you to ask them. your little sister had jungkook, elva had jimin, and olive had my brother, hoseok. daphne had leo and lucy had someone named charly. i was alone again. one day, you decided to come up to me at my lockers and say to me:

"do you want to go to the winter's ball with me?"

i glanced up.

"is this a sick joke played on me by either yoongi oppa or namjoon oppa?"

"no. i'm actually asking you to go to the dance with me. will you?"

"yes. i will, but only because you need a fucking date and so do i."

when you confessed:

you confessed a few days after the dance. i was honestly so happy, you don't know. i felt like hugging you and never letting go, but i couldn't, because i was living in fear of what would happen in the future with all the jealous girls. 

when we started dating:

the end of tenth grade, it was honestly so amazing. you asked me on our first date and i couldn't resist the offer. i loved you with all my heart. 

loved...

when you cheated:

the time you cheated broke my heart in two. you cheated on me with jessica parks, the school's queen bee. that little fucker hated me and broke us up. that's when i decided it would be better to be alone forever. yoongi and i made our own little club: single together forever. yoongi's the only one who gets me. i thought you knew me. guess you don't.

when i started cutting:

one cut

two cut

three cut

four

blood is dripping, from the counter to the floor

five cut

six cut

seven cut 

eight

should i stop before it's too late?

the other arm

one cut 

two cut

three cut 

four

how many more till i hit the floor?

five cut

six cut

seven cut

eight

i'm almost dead; it's too late.

i wish you were there to stop me. my brother found me just in time to make me stay alive. i was rushed to the hospital and stayed there for 2 weeks. not once did you visit me. were you that scared? scared of facing your ex-girlfriend? your sister visited me. daphne, olive, elva, and lucy visited me. yoongi visited me. namjoon, jin, jimin, jungkook, and hoseok visited me. you were the only one who didn't. would it kill you that much to see my face? or would it just make you regret the decision to cheat on me? 

when i returned to school after my incident:

everyone looked at me with either a look of disgust or pity. you were among those who looked at me with disgust, a look of pity buried within your eyes. i glared at you. i had only 5 friends and one brother. i still chose to isolate myself. you were dating that bitch, jessica. i found my locker vandalized with messages such as:

go kill yourself

smh, cheating on taehyung? kill yourself unworthy bitch

i wish you died

and one by the queen herself

taehyung's mine now. you're never ever ever getting him back. 

want to know the worst part? 

i still love you.

when you apologized:

it happened a few months ago, at the end of eleventh grade. jessica was found to be cheating one you. what can i say? you two deserved each other. you came crawling to me. you can probably guess what i did.

middle finger up.

f u player.

you left, completely broken in two. i guess you know how it feels now right? will i ever forgive you?

i can't make any promises. sure, i love you, but there are many reasons i still continue to cut. 

1. you cheated

2. with jessica parks

3. you cheated twice

4. i still get bullied

5. no matter what yoongi, daphne, olive, elva, lucy, and pickle try to protect me

6. i feel unworthy 

7. i. am. depressed.

so far in twelfth grade:

we have almost every class together, except for the elective. i catch you glancing at me, with the same kind of longing i used to have for you. i know you, but you don't know me. i've tried to kill myself three times after the cutting. yoongi saved me each time. 

1. overdose

2. cutting

3. cutting

i'm still depressed, and the fact that i still get bullied doesn't help at all. apparently, jessica wants you back, taehyung. go get her boy. i'm happy for you.

- ⭐n o v a🌟