01. Irresistible (Niall)

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by DirectionerPOVx

by DirectionerPOVx

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"Don't try to make me stay, or ask if I'm okay, I don't have the answer.

Don't make me stay the night, or ask if I'm alright, I don't have the answer.

Heartache doesn't last forever, I'll say I'm fine.

Midnight ain't no time for laughing, when you say goodbye."

"Nialler, please stay," You mean to speak louder, your voice just comes out as a whisper instead. You're not sure he hears you but you don't repeat it. You know if you say another word, a fresh wave of tears will wash over you and you're going start sobbing again.

You never thought it was going to happen. You never thought you would have to say goodbye to each other. Not this goodbye. You remember saying 'goodbye' in those phone calls every night when he was on tour. You remember saying goodbye to him on Skype or on Facetime. You remember texting him or tweeting him a short goodbye message once in a while. Why is it so hard this time? Because this time it's the last one. This time, there won't be a 'Hi' or a 'Hello' in the morning.

The sight of the broken boy in front of you makes your heart shatter into a billion tiny pieces. The knowledge that you did this to him makes the shattering painful. He stands there, tears streaming down his face, his piercing blue eyes now red and swollen from all the crying and dull and broken from all the heartache. As your eyes take in his appearance, you feel angry at yourself. You feel angry for giving up so easily, you feel angry for letting him go so quickly. You feel angry for not fighting. But it's too late. You can't change your mind now, there is no going back. He's not your play toy, you can't play games with him. You can't back down. He won't forgive you anymore.

"Are you okay?" You manage to choke out, because that's the only thing that comes to your mind. Stupid question, you know. But at least it's a start.

"You can stay the night here, y-you k-know, l-l-leave tomorrow morning." You're actually yearning for him to spend one last night with you. One last night in the same bed with his arms around you, protecting you from the monsters in your closet or under your bed. From the monsters inside of you. You need him to keep you safe. You want him. But you can't have him.

"Don't," He says through gritted teeth, his voice coming out low and raspy. "Just don't." That's when you know you've messed up big time. Your selfishness has cost you something bigger than you expected. You wish you could turn back time and undo your mistakes. But you were not strong enough. You would fall back in the same patterns, the same routine even if you got a second chance. You couldn't take it all. The hate you got from his fans, the everyday bullying in school. It was too much to handle. You were weak.

It started with constant partying. You would go to clubs and consume alcohol. It was a getaway. Niall was on tour most of the time, so instead of him, you seeked comfort in booze. You would never drive home, you always walked. And then every day, when you get home you would sob uncontrollably. You would cry and you would let it all out. Because alcohol didn't stop the emotions, it magnified them. Then one day, in one of those clubs, on one of those parties, you found a guy who just happened to be smoking weed. The next thing you know, you would meet up every day, and just get high. It made you happy, it made you forget about all of your problems. You couldn't help it. You couldn't stop.

Today, Niall came back. He came back after 6 instead of 8 months of travelling the world and singing on stage in front of millions of girls who loved him, early to surprise you. And the first thing he saw was you on the couch, high as hell and making out with the guy who got you in this mess. The guy left and you didn't even want him to stay. You didn't even feel anything for him. The kiss was just spontaneous. But the guy you did have feelings for, the one you really loved, Niall. he was right there, and you had to face him. You wanted to stop him from leaving. But you couldn't. You couldn't because he deserved so much more. He was entitled to all the happiness in the world. And you couldn't give that to him.

You stare at Niall as he turns around. It had happened. He had turned his back on you. The only person who was left. The love of your life. Your tears keep falling, and your voice is stuck in your throat, blocked without any way out. You are paralyzed as you watched him walk out the door. "I love you," You whisper as he shuts the door, not even turning around to look you in the eyes.

"I will always love you."

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