One move and it will all be over. All the pain, will just disappear. There is nothing to live for anymore. Gus is dying. I know he will, and so does he. I think he understands what I'm going to do, which is why he is trying his hardest to hold on. But that's just bringing him more pain.
One move and it will all be over. I'm causing my family suffering. Why couldn't my parents of had a normal child? For their sakes, I have kept going, and now Gus as well. But what's the point. They will all leave me at some time. I'm not going to have much of a life anyway.
One move and it will all be over. I prepare myself but I can't. I drop my hand and find that my phone is ringing. I pick up without looking at the caller ID. As soon as I hear her voice, I know. Numbness spreads through me and I can't even cry. I stare at the pills and I suddenly know, it's my turn.
One move and it will all be over. It will all be over. My hand starts to tremble as I bring it closer to my mouth. Before I realise what I have done, I swallow the pills. My vision blurs. I don't fight, I don't scream. I wait, like I know Gus did, for death to find me and take me. The last thing I see is a familiar person, beckoning at me to follow him. And I do.
Hazel Grace was found that day. Her parents mourned but were glad that their daughter wasn't in pain anymore. They always felt they were being protected and that they were. They never knew that their daughter was following them, keeping them safe, watching them, with some help of course, from her gorgeous guy. But her parents could swear that every so often they could hear the faint whispering a: Okay? Okay.
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The Stars in Our Fault
FanfictionMy alternate ending to the fault in our stars. It starts at the bit when Gus is dying, but he isn't dead.
