love story 💜

Cold

It was cold...But I don't feel cold...why? I feel like I'm broken like I'm not human.
I'm not wanted, I'm not loved, I'm nothing. I'm just a waste of valuable oxygen in this world, I hate it I hate everything in this world, and especially....me.
"Hi, Haibara," Conan said. Remember when I said I hate everyone in this world I lied I don't hate Conan instead I actually...love him. Yes, I said it I love him, I said those 3 words. That means that you surrender yourself to that person, those 3 words that mean that you would sacrifice your life for that person, that very short life that you have to live in this unforgiving world you would give it to that one person in a heartbeat.
"Hi Conan," I said in my usual monotoned voice even though my heart was screaming for me to say those 3 words, but I couldn't, all he thinks about is Ran his childhood friend. I don't hate Ran but I don't like her either, even though I envy her. He only thinks of her.
At the time I was working on the medicine to turn me and Conan back to our original bodies, but strangely I don't want to be back to that body it feels like all my problems will start again. I don't want that I want to stay here with the doctor, and with all my friends even though they can be annoying sometimes but I still have fun with them, and I wouldn't change it for the world, but I especially don't want to go back to my Original body because I want to stay with him...Conan
I stayed up the whole night working on this like many other nights. "hey Haibara I want to tell you something that will shock you" he sounds flustered, I don't understand, what does he want to say I wonder? "what" I said with my usual monotone voice but you can hear a little anxiousness behind it, I don't know why, maybe because he's never flustered.
He was blushing... Is he, yeah no way I'm just in over my head here. "what" I repeat myself but this time using with confidence.
"I I I...i ll... li" he started blushing fiercely he's face was as red as a tomato then I started to blush I was thinking *is he going to confess oh my god I can believe this is happening to me* "yes" I said waiting for him to confess while I was on the tip of my chair.
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