[ON HOLD] I'll Be Back Soon... (Gotta Be You)

Chapter 8-

Zayn's POV:

"There's a word that would hurt

I can feel on your lips

Like a gun to my heart

When all that I want is a kiss

But we fell so hard and it felt so right

So don't let it all end here tonight

And we could fall all over again

Don't say goodbye

Keep us alive

Cause my world will stop if we didn't try

Can't we pretend just for tonight

Cause those words would tear the stars from the sky

Don't say goodbye

Don't don't don't say it. Don't don't don't say it. Don't don't don't say it. Don't don't don't say it."

I sang quietly into Amanda's hair as we sat on the curb in front of the funeral home. It looked as if it was going to pour soon and I did not want to be soaked- especially in a suit. But I didn't care about it raining, or getting soaked, or ruining my suit. Right now, all I cared about was Amanda. I've never seen her like this and I never wanted too. She looked so fragile and vulnerable, where as, she how always looked- strong, confident and tough. Her face looked unbreakable. Her eyes looked unreadable. Her voice never cracked. But here she was. Completely and utterly broken to pieces. She lost her bestfriend. John was special to her. And now he's gone. Out of her life forever. and I was torn. I had no idea what to do. I hated seeing her like this and I dont think it's because I hate seeing people cry. I think I might have feeling for this girl. I know I haven't known her for long but there's something about her that makes me happy; that makes my stomach tingle; that makes my eyes sparkle; that makes my voice dry. It scared me and excited me at the same time. I've never felt this feeling before. Usually that's Harry's thing. Harry's the flirt and all. He gets all the girls. Honestly, I think he might get Amanda. He's been flirting with her non stop and she's falling for it! If he breaks her heart I dont what I'll do to him but it wont be good.

"Zayn- Zayn, you're hurting me." I looked down and realized I was squeezing her due to my thoughts. I quickly let go and blushed a little.

"Sorry babe. I didnt mean to." I rushed.

"I know. It's okay." Amanda smiled sweetly.

"Are you alright now?"

"Yeah. I'm better than before." She sighed deeply.

"Good." I grinned. "Do you want to go back inside or?"

"Yeah.. I guess..." She looked down at her feet.

"Let's go love." I said as I got up and held out my hand for her. She releuctantly took it and let me pull her lightly to her feet. Again, we were as close as ever. She opened her mouth to say something but nothing came out as she turned her head away from me. I sighed in frustration and stepped back. She obviously didnt like me the same way if she was uncomfortable when we were close. I cleared my throat and started walking back before Amanda's sweet voice stopped me.

"Zayn." I turned around on my heel and looked into that beautiful face of hers.

"Uhm.." She ran a hand through her long dark hair. "Thank you." she finally said.

"For what?" I raised an eyebrow and stuck my hands in my pockets.

She chuckled lightly. "For just; being here.... For everything."