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I don't know if I fantasize a lot but hey, it's great if you're sad because you can do whatever you want to in your own world of fantasy— because that's what I do.
But shit happens. It's been 5 days since I last saw Hyungwon— I mean, he really looked like Hyungwon and the fact that they have the same name.
I stopped attending fansign events ever since we've bumped into each other because of the reality. The reality that I'm fantasizing too much that my imaginations just went out and I'm too scared that I can meet him.
I felt both of my eyes burned out and that makes it teary. I closed my eyes and that makes my tears fall down from my cheeks.
It hurts that in my whole life being a fangirl for them, It hurts that I did really met him. It hurts to the point that I wanted to cry so much because of the happiness I'm feeling.
It hurts that there's a possibility that I'm not fantasizing anymore.
I opened my eyes because of my thoughts. I can feel that my lungs are now in need for air and that makes my breathe a little pre-occupied.
I quickly grabbed my coat and phone and went out of the house. The cold night welcomed me as I went out of my house. I started walking away from my house, looking down at my feet to catch some air for my lungs to be clear from the heavy feeling.
As I stopped walking, I looked up to see that I'm at the venue where Monsta X had their fansign 6 days ago. I didn't even know that I walked this too far.
I walked at the bench and once I've reached its distance, I sat on to it and silently catching some air for my lungs. I bowed my head down and closed my eyes so that I could feel the air coming inside from my nose.
As I was silently collecting some clear air, I felt that there's someone sat down beside me. I opened my eyes and turned my head beside me and I was surprise to see a good looking man, smiling beside me.
"Hi Cherish. It's good to see you again"
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cherish was hurting because of the fact that she really met hyungwon. she didn't believe it and keeps denying it because she's been drowning deeply with her fantasies. she's hurt because in the whole life of her being a fangirl, she met hyungwon and that makes her think that she's not fantasizing anymore.
