"Hey, Baby! Hi, John!" Eliza said.
"Hey, Eliza!" said John quietly.
"How are you feeling?" She sat next to John.
"Just a hangover is all."
"Oh, I had a headache for a little but it's gone now. How about you?"
"Eh, I'm used to it." Alex said.
"What?" John and Eliza asked.
"Well, you both know my life story. I don't think you need much more explaining."
"Oh, well that makes sense I guess." Eliza said.
"So why did you come over?" John asked not making eye contact with anyone.
"I wanted to see if you guys wanted to hang out."
"We'd love too!" Alex said.
"Actually, I'd rather stay here." John said still not looking at anyone.
"Oh, okay then. I'll meet you at the park in 20 minutes! Bye!" She kissed Alex on the cheek and hugged John.
"What's with you lately?" John asked Alex after Eliza left.
"What's with me? Nothing! How about you?"
"I don't know, um how about the fact that you put Eliza first!"
"She is my girlfriend!"
"And who's your best friend?"
"Jackie!"
" 'Who's your best friend?' "
"You. You're my best friend."
"That's what I thought!"
"What's your point?"
"It's been 4 days! You've been dating Eliza 3 days!"
"So?"
"She's the only thing you care about! You probably could care less if I was even alive!"
"You know that isn't true!"
"No, I don't, Alex! I don't! I mean you try to include me in your plans, but then everything revolves around her! 'Eliza wants Starbucks' 'Eliza is tired' 'Eliza's cold' Everything is about Eliza!"
"Well, I love her, John! She means everything to me!"
"Well, I love you! You mean everything to me!" John felt the tears run down his cheek, but he didn't care.
"John, stop! I'm not going to buy into your nonsense!"
"I'm telling the truth!"
"Really?"
"Yes really? Do you know why I did those stupid things? Because of you!"
"What stupid things?"
"Well this." He showed him his wrist. "And getting drunk."
"Wait, that was from me?"
"And Eliza. I felt like everything was over when I found out you were dating!"
"John, stop."
"I couldn't believe you liked me! I should have kept reading, but I didn't!"
"Jackie!"
"Do you still get lost in my eyes and freckles? Or am I not 'special' anymore!"
"Jackie! Stop!"
"No I want an answer!" He was sobbing at this point.
"Well um..."
"Um?!"
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Love Hurts
Fanfiction《Completed》 (Modern Hamilton AU) John has a major crush on his roommate, Alex. He does some things just to keep himself from being in constant pain of thinking that Alex doesn't like him. **Self Harm**