My Bloody Valentine {SASHAY}

Confessions

Sasha's pov:

          "Sasha, every since the first time I saw you, I was mesmorized by you. When we kissed for the first time on set, you took my heart with you when we pulled apart and since that day I have not been able to get it back. But the thing is, I don't want it back because you have had it for so long that it's not even mine anymore, it belongs to you and I can not think of a better place for it. I know that I am just a girl, and that I will probably never bee good enough for you. But I also know that I am willing to spend every day for the rest of my life trying to live up to everything you need me to be. Please, Please dont marry him sasha. I have no right to ask that after being a coward for so long I know. But baby please, Let me try to make up for it. Let me show you how perfect you are in every way, everyday, forever?"

          I can not even believe this moment is real. Those words, they are the most precious thing to ever grace my ears and I can't help but cry. Why now? Why couldn't she say this sooner, like at any point before Hudson asked me to marry him would have been great. But I can't break his heart now, and that breaks mine. "Please say something? Anything..." Shay says, tears streaming down her cheeks as well. "Shay, I love you to. I always have. I was just afraid to lose you so I never told you. I figured that it was best to have you in my life as a friend versus not at all. I even started dating Hudson to hide the fact that I had feelings for you. Then when he asked me to marry him, I concluded that I didn't want to spend the rest of my life alone and he had been there for me when I needed him, so I felt like I owed it to him to say yes. He will never have my heart, because it always has and always will belong to you. But I cant break his heart now. I just don't have it in me and that breaks mine more than you realize." I replied, honestly. "I understand, after all your big heart and your ability to put others above yourself at all costs is part of why I fell in love with you. I could never hold it against you." Shay said, throwing herself back on the pillow and getting comfortable. I take this opportunity to snuggle myself into her embrace placing my head on her shoulder and placing my hand over the center of her chest. Shay wraps her arm around me protectively and sighs. "At least we have tonight." I say to her as I begin to trace patterns down her body with my fingertips. "Tonight. I love you Sasha. Please don't ever forget that.".."I love you to.." I reply, letting another tear slide down my cheek. This is the moment I have been waiting for my entire life and I live it knowing that in the morning it has to be gone forever.

Shay's POV:

          I look down and see that Sasha has drifted into a peaceful sleep. Even though I try, I can't sleep at all. I have never been happier than I am tonight, with her. She is all that I need for the rest of my life. I can see a future with her. I love her, she loves me, but we can't be together. We cant be together because she has a good heart. Her good heart is part of what makes her so special because hearts like hers are few and far between now a days. Its all so difficult and confusing and it is literally driving me insane. I need to be with her and I would literally do anything to make that happen. That scares me because I know that I would go through hell and back for Sasha and that makes me completely capable of ANYTHING. I don't want to see her hurt and I don't want to lose her, but I know that I have to do something, she cant condemn herself to a loveless marriage just because I was too big of a coward to tell her how I felt before it all got this complicated. I will figure it out, but for tonight, this moment, right now I am going to relax and cherish every second of my time left with the angel in my arms.