Fixed Star

Fixed Star (Infinite (kpop) song)

by: CA.LI

A/N: while reading i advised you to listen the song before or after( it's up to you) but if you don't like kpop it's ok just read the story but it will be great if you listen to the song becuase it have an amazing lyrics (and my favourite kpop group "INFINITE").  the lyrics here  in this story belongs to the kpop boy group "infinite" i only own the sentence that is not in BOLD and in ITALIC.  The video is from Platypizz2

There must be some things I can't ever do 

like forgetting you 

I gave you too much of my heart, so much that 

It's almost pathetic 

I saw you, walking hand in hand with the person you love. I, who wishes to be that person, love you with all my heart. I'll give anything to be the person who holds your hand. For other it may sound pathetic, but it's not.  

If I could turn back time 

I would do anything 

Why didn't I think of something like this sooner (why not?) 

These are all useless regrets 

Because everything is over now 

If I have the power to turn back time, I'll do anything that will make you happy...but it's not, it is too late to do it, for everything between us is gone all that's left are these regrets. 

Can I ever forget you? 

Can I get through this alone? 

Am I strong enough to endure this? 

And not put my fallen tears to waste? 

Can I try to smile? 

It will take as long as the time that's already passed 

Some say that "Time can heal the broken" for some it's true, but for me it's not it just makes it worst. I, who have love you, cannot just walk away and forget everything that happened between us. I do not even know that I could hold the pain inside; for I am alone...but...can I smile...can I smile for you? 

Why didn't you erase every trace of you? 

So that it would be like nothing ever happened 

I'm breathing, but I feel like I'm slowly dying (I think I am) 

These are all useless regrets 

because everything is over now 

Every time I hear the song that you have always sung I always think of you I felt the tears streaming down my eyes it's not just sadness that I felt but also anger. Anger for I do not have the guts to protect you. 

Can I ever forget you? 

Can I get through this alone? 

Am I strong enough to endure this? 

And not put my fallen tears to waste 

Can I try to smile? 

It will take as long as the time that's already passed 

The kinds of person who i become doesnt have the courage to forget you. As times go by I no longer feel the pain, the pain of being alone, for I am strong enough to endure all of it. The time that have already passed made me who am I today. 

The memories are still piercing through me 

with sympathetic eyes 

My body is still thrashing in agony 

Maybe I can't do it 

I can't let you go 

Every time I walk down the halls I always have these memories of you walking beside me, Happy, Carefree, you were at peace like nothing can ever make your smile go away but every time I remembered these I have so many questions why was it you who let go?. I do not like the look on the people's eyes, always filed with sympathy, for they do not know how it felt to be hurt inside and out. 

I wonder if your mind is the same as mine 

I wonder if you're hurting alone 

I must still be worrying about you 

I wonder if I've been erased from your mind. 

I sometimes thought if you were here, will you know how I would feel? Does it hurt? , Did you already forget who am I? 

Erased forever 

Should I just go and be erased forever? 

Honestly, I think that's what I'm afraid of more than saying goodbye 

"Memory is all we are. Moments and feelings, captured in amber, strung on filaments of reason. Take a man's memories and you take all of him. Chip away a memory at a time and you destroy him as surely as if you hammered nail after nail through his skull." A quote from Mark Lawrence 

I... do not want to feel this way, to be a man that has been erased from a very precious memory, Memories that you and I share. Seeing the person you loved yet not knowing who you are. But I have to endure it. As times go by I no longer feel the pain, the pain of being alone, for I am strong enough to endure all of it. For there will be a time that the star can already move.