the girl of my dreams

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                                          i was bored one day so i started surfing the web not knowing wat was about to happen it would change my life big time.  like i said i was just goin from site to site just bored as hell i hit a new site id never seen before  it was a chat site as i looked over the people there i seen the most beautiful girl she took my breath away i wanted to talk to her but i couldnt you see im very shy i tryed my best to say hello i was so nervous i reached down and got all i had and said im doin it  and in a blink of an eye she was gone

i screamed in my head NOOOOOO i didnt know if id ever see her again her beauty was burned into my brain she was all i could think about  i went to the site every day looking for her then one day there she was just as lovely as she was the day i saw her this time im saying hello i got on my keyboard and typed hi my hands shook from nerves i sweat as if i had just ran a mile she said hi and we began to talk she was so very nice and sweet  i fell in love with her at that moment  she was all i thought about i couldnt wait till i saw her again

we talked about every thing i did my best not to let my shyness ruin this as it has done in the past but how can i tell her im so in love with her with out sounding like a weirdo or a nut  ive never met her how can i love her soooo much but i do it puzzles me too we spent the next few weeks chatting every day then she just wasnt there any more i went nuts thinking wat did i do or say to make her leave i couldnt think of anything i had done i guess it was about 3-4 days and i seen her she was back but she was in a hospital bed my mind went crazy omg wat happend is she ok y is she there i was truely worried scared something had happend we began to talk she said she was very sick from a cold she had i thanked god she was gonna be ok we have gotten closer by the day she is the nicest girl u will ever meet and she still dont kno how i really feel about her i so want to meet her 

its been like a month or two we been talking i think shes begining to kno i like her alot 

some times ill say how pretty she is and i see her eyes role back as if to say ok u said it before but she kinda smiles sometimes wen i tell her too she makes me feel so good wen i with her ive never had someone get happy i was there as she does shes the girl of my dreams shes the girl ive been looking for shes so perfect in my eyes then my bubble burst she said she had a boyfriend my heart shattered in like a zillion pieces but i said i was happy for her and i really was i was so sad tho i thought she will little by little stop comming here then wat would i do i have no way of talkin to her but here i wish i made her as happy as she makes me or if she loved me half as much as i love her  we would make it together i know we could  shes a few years younger than me but to me its no big deal i want to grow old together with her i want to sit on our porch wit her and watch our grand kids playing in the yard  but thats just a dream at this point but id do everything i could to make it come true if she wanted it too i dont know if her bf knows how lucky he really is or if he knows what a truely special girl he has i hope he does if i was him id never do anything to make her wanna leave i sooooo envoy him id give anything to be him i so wanna be her first true love her first real love kiss and so many more firsts i want this girl sooo much as my gf and hopefully my wife and the mother of my kids and my girl for my whole life but shes just the girl of my dreams  as of now 

          fate is so giving and yet soo cruel   i meet the girl ive dreamed about all my life and she lives in a whole other country its sooo not fair but if i have anything to say about it i will meet her one day  i will run to her hug her soo very tightly  and hopefully never have to let her go  her birthday is comming soon i so wanted to give her something she wanted but heres fate again being as cruel as it can be  i can get wat she wants but i dont receive it  ive tryed several times   i wish i could give her the world and everything she wishes for on her special day od love to make her day the best day she ever had id love to make all her dreams come true 

she dont know it but shes becoming my best friend and the funny part we never met face to face we video chat every day so i know her as good as if i was there i think of her wen shes not here i think about how i so wanna feel her touch feel her hold me in her arms i wanna taste her lips wen we kiss it drives me wild i cant we live like hundreds of miles apart i had the most beautiful dream  it was the best dream ive ever had we finally got to meet she flew here we met at the airport and wen i seen her i ran to her my arms open to hug her as soon as i was close enough big mistake dont do it u will both end up on the ground instead of a hug it becomes a tackle like in football lol   we both hit the ground but still arm in arm so we hugged on the floor lol then we went to disneyland we spent the whole day and nite there  we rode every ride they had she got a little scared on a few of them i liked them rides  cause she would hold me extra colse and id swear i could really feel her holding me we stayed for the fireworks show as we watched i held her hand wen it was over i looked at her and thats wen it happend we kissed omg it was the best kiss i ever had it felt like we kissed for such a long time but wasnt very long  all i knew is i wanted to kiss her more and we did lots more she came back with me we spent the night together and yes we made love img i cant put that into words it was that wonderful and yes i was her first that made it even more special shes very beautiful but then she was breathtaking omg she is the beautifulest girl ive ever seen ever in my life   id love to really see her ill bet shes just as pretty as i dreamed if not more i wish i could see her and thats wen i woke up i was kinda sad to find out it was just a dream i so wanted her to be beside me but shes just the girl of my dreams and shes real i hope she reads this she will know how much she truely means to me i love her with every drop of my being  i never knew i could care about some one this much i hope she dont get creeped out and think im a wierdo and thats the girl of my dreams i hope one day my dreams come true i will really meet her and we have the most wonderfulest life together thats my wish                                  i wonder if wishes do come true ?? i hope so .... do u ???