Chapter 1

*In bed staring at ceiling stranded in deep thought.* 

       The world today is a cruel place, no matter what you say and or do someone always get offended and usually I am not that person but recently I have become that way. I always ask my myself...

"will it get better?"

"will I ever love or be loved?"

"will I ever be taken ser-" beep beep beep my alarm clock began to sound and blared in my ears. Even after I quickly turned it off it still rang in ear. I tried to mentally prepare myself for what I was about to put myself through with absolute no choice. The first day of Highschool, I leaned back and screamed into my pillow. I mean I am such a peoples person I just don't think they're ready for me just yet. I get up its so cold in my room so I decided to take a nice hot shower, I get in I scrub body with my favorite body wash warm vanilla sugar I smelled so yummy. I already did my hair the night before because it takes ages to do. I wrapped a towel around me and went into my walk in closet. I thought to myself "um ok penny wtf are you gonna wear?" I destroyed my closet till I picked out the perfect outfit. it was a tight denim skirt and a rose colored off the shoulder crop top that looked perfect on my tan toned body. I slipped my clothes on and went to the desk on the other side of my room to do my makeup, love the lighting over there lol. *20 minutes later*I finished my makeup and it was a first time in a while where when I looked in the mirror I liked what I saw, after that moment I knew it was going to be a good day. I walked down stairs and my mother and father waited at the bottom of the stair case to feed me breakfast before my big day. 

The aroma of the food filled the air, I felt like ratatouille smelling the food and then my mind created all sorts and kinds of colors and shapes to how the food smelled I couldn't wait to taste it. My mother and (yes I call my mom mother) but she made me an omelet, bacon, toast with butter and coffee. I started to eat and glanced at my phone it was 6:45 I was going to miss the bus. I begged my parents to drive me because of past years of bus issues but they said it would be different this year and wanted me to experience it.... I took a huge swig of my water grabbed my bag and I was out the door. I walked to the end of the street and waited for the big yellow smelly bus. I saw it slowly coming down the street, it reached my house to a slow but sudden stop. the bus driver opened the door she looked at me with disgust, you could teak she hated her job. I gave her a smile walked up the stairs and gave a fake smile back. I reached the top of the stairs and glanced at all the other scared faces as we all faced a huge brand new school. I found an empty seat and sat down. I plugged my right ear phone in played frank ocean and stared out the window. The bus driver picked up another girl, she walked down the aisle I could easily tell she was more scared than I was. I waved her she walked over to my seat.

"You can sit here if you want" I said sweetly to the girl

"Are you sure I don't want to bother you" she replied scratching the back oh her neck

"Omg of course sit down" I literally insisted that she sat with me 

" well thank you" she smiled and sat

"so whats your name?"

"my name is Marisa but you can call me Riss for short thats what my old friends used to call me"

"well hello Marisa, Riss for short my name is penny its nice to meet you" I said as I reached to properly shake her hand

she smiled back and said " Its nice to meet you too]" and gripped my hand 

We exchanged numbers and social media and and that moment I knew we would be best friends.  A few minutes later we got to school it was freaking huge my jaw practically reached the floor. Everyone stood up and walked off the bus and thanked the extremely unhappy bus driver. I took my schedule out of my backpack and took a look at my first class. It was chorus I was so happy that it was my first class because I love to sing and honestly I wasn't so bad at it. I walked into school and for some reason everyone stopped what they were doing and stared at me. It was as if I was a cat in a field filled with labor retrievers if that makes any sense at all. They all whispered to their friends and if they didn't have friends they whispered to them selves which was so odd. I turned to Marisa and asked her a question 

"Um Marisa why are they starting at us?" and she seriously laughed 

"Penny are you serious thy aren't looking us..."

" Marisa yes they are look at th-"

"Penny, honey they are all looking at you..." she said annoyed

" I don't understand why would they be looking at me is it because I'm a freshmen?" I asked extremely confused 

"Um no maybe because you are absolutely beautiful? You basically look like Rihana's daughter"

"Hahaha no I don't shut up" I grabbed her hand and let us to the office. I asked where the chorus room was and the lady at the desk gave us directions... thats how big this school is. I walked Marisa to class said goodbye and started to walk to chorus. I walked down the halls and all I could feel were the tens and or literally hundreds of eyes constant staring at me and eyeing my whole body. I felt so uncomfortable I thought to myself, what have they never seen a mixed girl before? Im already so uncomfortable in my own skin they have to make it worse?. I tried to ignore the stares and get to class but it was so unbearable I saw a bathroom ran inside and shut the stall door. I couldn't breathe I felt like the walls were closing in on me and I'm not even claustrophobic. I closed my eyes thought of something happy and it calmed me down. I left the stall, walked down the hall and tried to find my class looking like a lost puppy. I thought I had found my class and I walked in room 105. All heads turned and jaws were dropped I even heard some whistles. Everyone in here looked so old, oh no this must be a senior class. Th teacher realized I was lost and asked me what class room I was looking for I said chorus and he pointed to the door down the hall. Let me just tell you so awkward I never want that to happen again. I said thank you smiled and left to find the chorus room. I approached a door and it literally said chorus on the door in huge black block  letters, so embarrassing. I try to open the door but it was stuck on something. I pulled and I pulled until it swung open I completely lost my balance and stared to fall forward. Im inches from hitting the ground until I feel someone grabs my wait from behind and yank me back up and feel into some strangers arms. my eyes are closed Im too scared to open them until I hear

"hey Its okay I got you cutie" a boy says in a deep but sweet raspy voice. I slowly open my eyes and I'm looking at the most beautiful boy I think I have ever seen. His eyes are so brown and multi colored that they are basically hazel, his chiseled jaw and dark brown hair just made absolutely beautiful. now I'm stuck there in his arms not wanting to let go but neither does he. He glances at my pink plump lips a few times analyzing my face and lets me out of his grip.

"wow you are so pretty" he blurts and then becomes embarressed turns extremely red and then scratches the back of his neck.I can't believe this kid is saying im pretty but has he looked in the mirror.

"so are you oh no I mean your sexy oh thats not what I meant either..." I said and then my eyes began to fill up with tears knowing I blew my only chance of getting to know him and making a new friend. I looked away and looking for an empty seat to sit in. he looked t me and said 

"Haha hey! it's ok forget about it ! would you at least tell me your name?" 

I couldn't talk anymore even if I wanted to I was terrified, so I reached in the pocket of my skirt and grabbed a penny looked down and held out my hand. He extended his arm and held his palm out to me and watched as I placed the penny heads up in the palm of his hand. He had the look of concussion on his face and said "penny?" and I smiled.

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CLIFF HANGER! Comment what you think! and also let know what you think might happen in the next chapter.

Il start writing the next one tomorrow and ill post it when I get  (at least) 5 views

Have a good night <3 ~ signing off you know you love me xoxo JC PENNY.