himself - renmin (discontinued)

one

renjun was the quiet boy in the back of the class that no one noticed and never got called on by the teachers. he was quite small and weak for boy his age but that didnt mean he was bullied or anything. his life was normal.

there was one thing that wasnt the most “normal” thing about renjun. when he was little he always showed more interest in girly thing, he would sometimes take some of his mothers makeup and try to put it on like his mother always did. when his mom did catch him, she wasnt mad at all and just showed the boy a few tips and tricks.

as renjun grew up, his love for makeup and dresses didnt go away, if anything, it only grew larger. luckly, both of his parents accepted it and supported their son. sicheng, renjuns borther, also didnt mind at all, in fact he sometimes let renjun do his makeup and when he showed his boyfriend, jaehyun would always thank renjun for making sicheng more beautiful- even though that was quite a hard task.

when renjun would be at home, wearing one of his skirts or dresses, he would feel like he was himself. he never had the actual desire to become a girl though, renjun was completely fine with his body.

one day, while he was in school, renjun heard rumours about some student who was apparently coming coming back from an injury. the chinese male only came to the school a year ago so he guessed that the other student left before he came here. the person was apparently friends with jeno, donghyuck, and mark, who were usually thought of as the popular group that everyone admired.

anyway, renjun didnt really care about whoever was coming back, they would mean nothing in his life so there was no use in renjun wasting his time thinking about the kid.

renjun walked over to his two friends, chenle, another chinese student who was a year below him, and jisung, the youngest in their small group. the two were talking about the mysterious student who renjun was honestly quite tired of hearing about everywhere he went.

“i dont get what the big deal is about that student.” renjun said when he finally reached where chenle and jisung were.

“he used to be friends with jeno, donghyuck and mark, you know how excited the school would get if one of them was coming back from something. jaemin was also very popular, he has good looks, and hes a natural flirt- the girls would always go crazy over him.” jisung explained. chenle probably didnt know much about said returning student- jaemin, according to what jisung said- the younger chinese boy had moved to korea about half a year before renjun did.

the bell rang and the three friends had to go seperate ways to their own classes. renjun went to his first class, math and went to his seat in the back, away from people and whatever could bother him.

as the other students finished coming in and the teacher stared talking about whatever they were currently learning about, renjun realized that donghyuck and jeno were missing. the small male didnt actually care if they were here or not, but he was flas that he wouldnt have to listen to them goofing off in their seats, not quieting down even if the teacher asked them to.

around ten minutes later, three students suddenly burst into the room. renjuns gaze immidiately went to the door, where he saw two students, jeno and donghyuck, holding onto a slightly taller students arm- who was honestly looking quite uncomfortable in the situation.

“well thank you jeno, and donghyuck for finally showing up, and welcome back jaemin. could you three please show up before class starts next time?” the teacher said to the three males at the door who nodded and went to wherever jeno and donghyuck usually sat, now jaemin too, renjun guessed.

now that renjun had seen jaemin, he could kind of understand why the students were excited that he was coming back, jaemin had a beautiful smile, he was blessed with great visuals and when renjun heard his voice, which was a bit deep, he felt his heart skip a beat. its probably just a small crush that will pass in a day or two.

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along with the fact that renjun knew he liked wearing girly thing, he knew that he was attracted to boys, his family obviously accepted that- sicheng was dating jaehyun. so renjun didnt think much when he noticed that he started liking jaemin. the chinese boy thought that he would never actually have a conversation with the other so he pushed his small crush to the back of his mind and focused on his school work.

some days, when renjun wasnt feeling that anxious, he would go out to a small cafe or a book store with his brother or one of his two friends (he had told them a few months after getting to know them well). anyway, today was one of those days and after renjun happily put on his favourite skirt, a large sweater, and a wig he had, he went to his brothers room.

when he entered he noticed his brother looking helplessly into his closet at the clothes he owned.

“do you need help?” renjun asked, wondering if the older male was looking for clothes for some occasion or something.

“renjun!” sicheng looked at his younger brother with joy in his eyes. “can you help me find something to wear on my date?”

“only if i can come too, im bored.”

“fine, just help me, im dying here! i know youre good at stuff like this!” winwin said, knowing that jaehyun liked the things his brother picked out for sicheng to wear.

a few minutes after winwin was ready, the two brothers heard someone ring the doorbell and sicheng went to the door to see jaehyun standing there.

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