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Jack Pov

I sat in my empty, quiet, dark apartment, it's hard to believe that when I bought this place I was in the relationship of a life time, I was with the only person I'll ever love and that person just happened to be Alexander Gaskarth. You see during the Don't Panic era Alex and I dated for a while and it was the best time of my life, I mean apart from high school when Alex and I tried to go to prom together but got kicked out because we were same sex. So I told him to ask HER out and he did, little did I know I'd be 30 and crying over the man I once held in my arms that SHE now held in her gross arms.

"Guys, I have some exciting news." Alex announced. "I'm marrying Lisa!" He was so happy. I got up and ran to the toilet locking myself in, a 13 year clean streak ended that night. I was crying my eyes out. "Rian's my best man!" He announced, I could hear him above my sobs. He chose Lisa over me, he chose Rian over me. "I bet he threw the charm away." I thought to myself. I reached into my shirt pulling the A charm out, there was a little circle that was engraved to say "Jack and Alex, forever and always" well that's bullshit.

That flashback, I looked at my wrists, scars and new cuts lacing them. My sobs were the only sounds in the entire apartment. I walked over to the storage room, picking up the large board. It read "take off your pants and jacket with me or I'll miss you. Prom?" He literally screamed yes. I was so happy but that bouncer dude had to ruin it all. No same sex couples at prom, I cried that night. I've cried nearly every night since then. I had so many memories with Alex but nope, they're all gone now, I'm alone. I'm only in contact with the band and the crew and that's only for the band. I have no friends. The fans shouldn't care about me, after all I've kept my 2 biggest secrets from them 1) I'm gay 2) I'm a self harmer. I feel so lonely, I just want love. I grabbed my guitar, I started to play Oh Calamity!, Alex made a wreck out of me. But this is my fault because I'm a failure. My thoughts were interrupted by my phone

"Alexalltimelow has posted a new photo"

You were my favourite human. Now my favourite human isn't even a human, it's the piece of metal that keeps me sane because I know that no one loves me and I'm alone. Death seems right and wrong, I guess some fans would be sad for like a day but probably no longer. My tears had slowed down slightly until a fan's tweet burst me into sobs-
In a way I'm worried that Jalex will end up like Ryden. They put so much into their relationship for it to crumble, I hope this doesn't happen.

My reply-

I'm sorry. Jalex is not real. All Time Low isn't real. I'm completely disconnected from everyone, I'm going through a very very tough time, I've not been this bad in years. A 13 year clean streak was killed and I want to be that clean streak. I'm sorry you had to read that, I'm just a big gay mess.

I passed out shortly after, probably from crying. I woke up on the floor. I saw my phone flashing, the screen read-

Alex- come to my house, we need to talk

Alex- jack please answer me

Alex- Jay please don't hurt yourself

Alex- Jacky please answer me xx

Alex- I'm worrying now, answer me.

Alex- please

Alex- Jack

Alex- Jack

Alex- Jack

I slammed my phone onto the table and then a voicemail started playing. "J-jack-y p-please *sniffs* an-answer me *sniffs* I'm w-worried I don't w-want to l-loose y-you *sobbing*" Alex was sobbing. I couldn't fall for this, I looked over at the balcony, top floor apartment building. Maybe?

"Alexalltimelow has posted a new photo"