Suicide IS an option, but you don't need to choose it

Part 1

Hey, I'm Justin. You've probably heard of me; just heard nothing GOOD of me. This is my story. Why I do what I do. How I feel. How people make me feel.

I'm not gonna lie: I've thought about suicide more than once. Hell, I've even tried it. I self harm on a weekly basis. I'm getting help though. But specifically these last few weeks, I've been feeling really bad. So I'm sharing everything. With everyone. Now.

First, we'll start with friends. I've never had many good friends. Except one. (More on that later) I'm always picked on, and bullied. Most people don't like me. They say it's because "I'm bisexual, I wear makeup. I'm weird." The truth is: I don't see anything wrong with those things. They are just part of me. They make me. I will never be like anyone else. Neither will you. Or anyone on this planet. We are all different. And we are beautiful.
But others don't see that. They see me as "weird." Maybe they're right. Maybe they're all right.