I can't believe its true

Is she really dead?

I was 14 years when everything started, I don't know how it happened but it did. I had this feeling that something was wrong since a long time, but I wouldn't accept it. I kept yelling but no one would hear me. I wasn't satisfied with the explanation my dad gave me, like who would believe it was an accident a car accident, there was no body, no one to testify, she was just missing. My dad kept telling me that se was dead the same as the police, but I know she isn't, she can't be! Few days later from the 'accident' I heard the sheriff talking with my dad, they were whispering so I couldn't listen the complete conversation. The sheriff was telling my dad that everything was going to be alright that the plan went perfect and she was never getting back to Rosewood. My father answered some random stuff but I wasn't able to get rid of the things the sheriff told him. Like I wasn't a baby anymore an I knew they were up to something, but I wasn't so sure about it, so the only things I could think about that time were either "Everything is gonna be okay" or "This is just a nightmare I will wake up soon" The sad part was that I knew neither of them was true, it wasn't just a nightmare and nothing was going to be okay, and even worst was that those days I couldn't trust anyone but me. So I kept digging and every time I had a chance I would just keep cramming my dad with questions he wouldn't answer.

But it didn't have to get long for me to found out the truth. Seven months had been gone since my mother's disappearance, my dad kept telling me that she was dead and I had to get through it. But I never gave up, I wanted answers that I had to get. Finally when I found out the truth I thought that all of it would be over, "She was dead, but she didn't killed herself in a car accident she was brutally murdered by a friend of hers who later supposedly died from a heart attack" but over wasn't the right word for it. Everything in my life kept falling apart, at the time I was a teenager so what did I expect but it wasn't right though. I wanted more, I needed more.