A Name

Chapter 12

Sherlock lifted his head from John's lap just a bit, "Paul?"

"Yes, Paul. You know, the name you so decided to," John's voice broke off, he cleared his throat, "moan out while we were" he cleared his throat again, "having sex." It surprised Sherlock how calm yet menacing John's voice could be.

Shelrock lifted his head completely off John's lap. He looked earnestly at the other man's blue eyes. If only John knew how much willpower it took to not look away. "What...what would you like to know?"

"Well, first off, who is he?"

"Uh. Uh. I-"

"Would it help if I asked 'yes' or 'no' questions?"

"Yes." Sherlock basically blurted out.

"Okay."

"Okay."

Sherlock suddenly became very self-aware of his stance on the floor, looking up at John as his beacon. He sat himself on his chair, across from John.

"Okay." John began, "Is he- was he a previous- is he an ex?"

"Yes." he hesitated,"Well-yes."

"Do you still have feelings for him?"

"No." he met John's full on stare at this. He had to make sure John understood there was never anyone else.

"So why--I mean have you been thinking about him lately?"

"Yes. But not for whatever reasons you might think."

"Oh you know what I think, don't you?"

"Yes." He gave John his best 'please, I'm Sherlock Holmes' look. "You think I've begun to lose interest in you and have deigned to  think of past lovers because of it. I can assure you you are wrong."

"Aren't I always." John said with a slight smile. It relieved Sherlock tenfold. "So why have you been thinking about him?"

"He recently got in contact with me. No doubt saw my name in the papers and-"

"Wait, when did you guys..date?"

"Uni. Didn't last long at all an-"

"Good." John blurted. "Sorry"

"Well," a smirk started to play at Sherlock's mouth, "dare I say you're jealous, John?"

"Shut up." John said, already smiling. "You can't say you wouldn't be jealous if our roles were reversed."

"No. No I can't"

"Alright, well that doesn't seem so bad, so why didn't you tell me earlier?"

"You didn't ask."

"I didn't think you were up for discussion about it. You did go for a round of hide and seek as soon as it happened, I might add."

"Thought you'd be mad."

"I was furious. But mostly hurt."

They sat in each other's silence not quite looking at each other. John rested his head on Sherlock's and that was it. That would be the end of that conversation but most definitely not the end of them. It was in the small things they did that showed how strongly they felt for each other. How John's hand did not dare tremor when Sherlock was in the room. How Sherlock touched John in ways he would not imagine touching anyone else. It was in the palm at the small of John's back and in the smile they both reserved for one another. The important thing was that it was there. It existed and no one could deny that.

A/N: i apologise if the ending/reveal was a letdown. i was really making up the story as i went which was a rubbish decision. but as long as the jouney was fun, couldn't have been that bad right? ha. anyway thanks to everyone who kept up with this story and who favorited and commented you guys mean so much. I also recently got an ao3 account so if you could drop by archiveofourown.org and read my stories that would be great. my username is vmercyb I'm planning to edit this story and move it there as well as other drafts i have on here. major editing needed but im looking forward to it. I LOVE YOU ALL. i promise my other stories are better, at least i hope they are c: