BTS Oneshots

Promise

//Promise//
-Jin Imagine-
<Reader POV>
You promised me you'll be back, so please don't break your promise.
You told me to wait until the next white Christmas but 2 years have passed, there was never any snow.
Does this signal you'll never be back?
Or were you telling me not to wait for you?
Where are you when I need you?
I cross out the calendar day by day, slowly losing hope as time passes...
Will you really come back like you promised?
I sat on the couch where we used to cuddle, looking out the glass window recalling what happened exactly 2 years ago.

(Recalling 2 years ago)
<Reader POV>
It was snowing heavily.
In our house decorated with Christmas lights, we were in. Sitting on the couch beside the fire having hot chocolate while watching the snow.
The snow outside was building up just like our love for each other.
Then Jin's phone suddenly rang and broke the silence.
He picked up the call and I felt something wasn't right once he did.
His facial expression turned from relaxed to stern in just a second after he picked up the call.
I knew what was coming. I immediately switched on the TV channel to the news station channel and to what I expected, something serious had happened somewhere across the world.
They needed military help from the army all over the world, and Jin, my husband, was the sergeant in charge of his army. He needed to be there.

He put down the phone call, looked at the TV then looked at me expecting me to say something, but I kept quiet.

"They need help from the military."
He spoke up.

"What about me? I need you too!
I lived in torture for 6 months until we finally met each other again. I almost lost you the previous time and I won't let it happen again!"

I shook my head and slowly started tearing up thinking about how he almost lost his life in his previous mission.
It was a selfish thought, but all I wished for was for him to be safe, I didn't want history to repeat itself again.
I went through 6 months of torture back then wondering every day when he'd come back home.

"I'll come back alive. I promise."
He held onto my face with both his hands and wiped my tears away with his thumb.

He stood up and went into the room then came out dressed in his military uniform.

"Nothing I say would change your mind, right?"
I started crying uncontrollably.

He came forward and wrapped his arms tightly around me.

"I'd be back the next white christmas.
I promise."
He whispered in my ear.

"I need to go now."
He kissed me on my forehead then picked up his backpack and walked to the door while I still stood frozen.

I heard him open the door as a gush of cold wind blew into the house but a few seconds later, my surrounding became warm again.

"He left... again..."
I didn't even get the chance to hold him once more before he left.
I collapsed on the floor and started sobbing till I fell asleep...
Never once after he left have I not had a nightmare when I fall asleep.

It was like a second round of torture.
I took sleeping pills every night but it didn't seem to work at all.
I weep in bed every night and try to keep myself awake because every time I fall asleep, I'd dream of him lying unconsciously on the floor with gunshot wounds on his body.
It was like a nightmare wrapped in a nightmare.

It was already the second christmas but it never snowed.
Does this indicate he will never come back?

(Next year)
After another year of mental torture came the third christmas...
It finally snowed!! It was a white christmas!!

I sat on the couch looking out the window wondering if he would just appear from far believing that he would definitely keep his promise.
Just then I received a call from the contact "my most important person"