Dear past me,
Just a little advice.
Don't make dumb decisions and do what's RIGHT in your heart not what others want because if you end up doing what others want, you'll regret it and you'll lose people. After the past month I learned that I can't rely on my head to make the right decision. I learned that not all decisions are the right ones.
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HA you thought I was gonna write a full letter to myself, nope. I don't think I am capable of putting what I need to say into the letter without being depressed again. I actually had a good day. One of the best ones in a while. But then it slowly faded. Not because of one specific person but because of me in general. I am incapable of keeping myself in a good mood for more than 3 hours without crying at least once in a school day. And seven more times at home. Why? Because I have issues. Am I scared to admit it no. No I'm actually not.
Today someone got mad at me and I don't understand what in the world I did. I mean yeah I get it I can be a bitch but DAMN you are a bigger one. I got yelled at today for being me, I'm sorry if my clinginess affected your life. I'm sorry if I made the wrong decision to you and you feel the need to punish me for it. I'm sorry I'm not perfect to you. I'm also terribly sorry I make you mad because I beat myself up. lately that's all I'm good at. I'm not strong anymore. I listen to everyone else. I'm not smart or funny. I'm that one awkward girl that sits there with her head on her boyfriend's shoulder and doesn't say much. I'm really sorry that I'm me, who else do you want me to be?
