Our Ever After?

Numb

Skyler

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All I've felt since that morning is numb. It had almost worked, after years of putting it out of my mind with the belief that if I didn't think about it didn't really happen. You know I believed the dumb saying that time heals all wounds. That one tiny line of raised skin on my hip wouldn't send me hurtling back into that dark basement. That instead of hearing Jamie talking to me telling me how beautiful I am, I hear the evil cackle of my half-brother while his friends. I wish I could shove the words out of my mouth rather continue in the silent hell I've locked myself into.

I had him, he was, mine to lose and I pushed him away. Once again proving the fact I'm too damaged for anyone to love me. The door flew open, leaving a panting Jamie standing in the middle of my doorway looking kind of angry.
"You know what, No! I want to be in this relationship!" Jamie yells, storming into my room, "I don't care what you've been through because you came out stronger and you don't walk away from the person you're falling in love with!" He yells at me, staring right into my soul.
"You can't just say what I've been through doesn't matter! I'm dirty and scared and you deserve perfect" I scream back at, the same thing I've been thinking all week since I fled from his bed.
" nothing you say could make me change my mind, Skyler. I'm here for you as long as you will let me" He tells me slightly calmer, hesitantly walking towards me.
"My half-brother tricked me in a basement and let his friend try and rape me" I whisper in utter defeat knowing how disgusting I am.
In a split second, I'm wrapped in Jamie's arms with him telling me how strong I am but now saying the one thing I truly need him to say.
"You can't love me now, right? I'm too broken for you?" I yell shoving him away.
"Skyler! I'm not going anywhere, I'm staying right here with you." He calmly says. Determined to prove him wrong I just say it all...
"The whole town thought my mom was crazy and was lying when it came out who my father was so Brandan hated me the second, I moved in. He would treat me just as bad as his dad or egg him on. He would get his dad to give me a million chores to do in a short time while he was gone them Brandon would sit there and yell about everything, I was doing so his father could have an excuse to beat me. It happened about a week before I ran away, one of the driving factors.
He told me that his father wanted me to clean the basement, somewhere I hadn't been allowed before. It was the man cave, so I was concerned but either way, I was going to get beat. As I turned the corner at the bottom of the stairs someone grabbed me" I stop for a second as my voice shakes.
"Shhhh, it's okay sweetheart no one is going to get you. I'm here for you" Jamie continues to whisper how beautiful and strong I am as I catch my breath for a moment.
"I can't really remember what happened right after I just felt a lot of pain in the back of my head and when I woke up, I was pinned to the couch and Brandon's best friend was trying to use the shirt he had torn off of me to tie my hands down thinking I wouldn't wake up yet. On instinct, I panicked, and I bucked my hips and kind of threw him off of me. I got up and tried to run upstairs but it hurt so bad I tripped and slammed my hip into the corner of a table before Brandon grabbed me. He threw me into the opposite wall before whisper so clearly in my ear 'do you really think a whore like you will get away?'
I just snapped, brought my knee up as hard as could into his dick and just ran. But I had nowhere to go so I sat locked in the bathroom with my clothes half torn off, hip bleeding and a good chance my head was too waiting for an hour for my father to come and beat me up more for not cleaning. I just sat there because I had nowhere to go and no one to care what happened to me."
I finally said everything I could remember. And Jamie is still here holding me even closer in his arms.
" Jamie." I whimpered out but was just meet with him holding me tighter and him burying his face deeper into my neck.
In the quietest voice possible I slowly tell him, "I'm sorry, I should have trusted that you would still want me. I haven't said any of that out loud ever. I wasn't raised to believe that there wasn't a guy out there like you. Who would take me for all of my lumps and bruises and love each one as if it part of my beauty? My grandpa left my grandma when my mom was little. My dad refused to admit I was his. The list goes on, men don't want my families, crazy complicated women."
" I want you Skyler, every part of you. Every tear, laugh, sexual urge and smile you have to offer." He tells me right before kissing me as if he owns me. The kiss quickly becomes messy and heated as he slowly moves us so he's laying me under him. He starts kissing down my throat, sucking making sure to leave a mark each time...