"May tanong ako sayo. Pero wag mo sana mamasamain ha?"
"Ano yun?"
"Bakit mo pa ko kinakausap ngayong okay na kayo?" Tanong ko.
"Masama ba? Ayaw mo ba? Okay lang naman. Ititigil ko na ang pakikipag usap sayo kung.. nahihirapan ka na." Sagot nya sakin.
Okay lang naman? Okay lang kasi hindi naman ako mahalaga, 'no? Ang sakit naman nun. Haha.
"It's okay. Pero kasi, Im recovering. Hirap na 'ko. Ayoko na eh. Ang sakit na talaga. Minsan nga iniisip ko, kaya mo lang siguro ako kinakausap kasi bored ka." I unconsciously bit my lower lip.
Nagpatuloy ako sa sasabihin ko. "Hindi masama. Masaya ako pag nakakausap kita. Pero knowing na may mahal kang iba? Ang hirap magpanggap na okay. Gusto ko ng kumawala sa nararamdaman ko sayo. Pero ang hirap."
"Block me. Para hindi ka na mahirapan. Para matapos na. Dapat nga hindi mo na 'ko kinakausap." Sabi nya.
"Im sorry kasi kinausap pa kita." Im sorry, Im hurt.
"Block me, para maayos na. Para hindi ka na masaktan pa dahil sakin, para makalimutan mo na 'ko. Para sumaya ka na."
Nanikip ang dibdib ko sa nabasa. I can't. But I guess his right. I have to do it.
"Your wish is my command. Im not going to block you literally, Im going to block you mentally and emotionally. Wish me luck, for the last time, I love you, goodbye." Message sent.
He just sent a smiley face emoji.
I turn off my phone, and I put it beside me.
The moment I close my eyes.. a tear fell.
Loving him is one of my mistakes, loving him in a short period of time is quite impossible. But then, it happened.
We really can't tell what will happpen to our lives. Kahit ayaw natin, mangyayari at mangyayari pa 'rin talaga.
He's the person that I didn't expect to come. He's the person who I want to spend my life with. He's the person who makes me happy, makes my day whole, who inspired me a lot of things, who made me a better person. And he's the person that I am inlove with but the sad reality is.. he's inlove with someone else.
He is the person who made me feel that my existence matters. He's the person who completes me, but he's also the one who wrecked me.
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