Sorry i couldn't be all that you wanted

Sorry I am not that

I wish I was more than what Mets your eyes,
I just wish you were able to see the potential in my affection.
Only by then you had see that I am more than you take me to be ,
I am limited by the resources that makes the love envious, the materialistic idioms, the things that would see you elite among your peers, but that has never Hindered me to give you all I had, I have been so determined to give you the best of things that I couldn't even afford myself cause all i wanted was to see you smiling, all that I ever wanted was to love you more than me!  Unfortunately you saw my giving as a misguided affection that led you to my best friend the one guy who potential helped me boo you, at some point I was convinced that you loved me more and you were willing to do as I was doing  for you, I wish I knew I was give love to no one the one who only cared of what was coming in not what was going out, I pushed myself believing that one day you would love me more than me.
It's so tragic to imagine that you have buried that dream to the den of loneliness and hurtfulness, but what did I ever do wrong? Was it the fact that I  chose to make you the center of my life, was it wrong to make you the focusing point of my life? I wonder what wrong is there in that, but what More hurtful is the fact that you chose to go for him, what was I not doing right? Why him? I just wish you told me what I wasn't doing right instead of backstabbing, why didn't you just approach me the way you normally do when you are asking for favours, I wish you had the guts to tell me that you were not feeling me anymore, but instead you chose to be a backstabbing coward, the one who can't even face her reality.
I would admit am hurt I believe you did it intentionally to hurt me, so that you hear me say how hurt I am, but I must confess that you got that one right because it got me to the core, it tore  my heart into pieces it crushed me to a point of not recognizing what the feeling of love is. But one thing will have to stand, I will never let you be the end of me, I will never give you the power of taking the happiness I use to know before I meet you, the power of making me doubt myself and what I can give! I'll survive and make the best out the bad experience you put me through am strong because I managed to come out of your lies and deceit and wrote this for him to see and you to read to shame you for not being loyal but since both of you have no self respect and loyalty to your feelings you can have each other and I wouldn't care because am done!