Broken Yet Saved

Need you

I was still in a deep sleep I again tried to wake up but I couldn't. I started seeing the flash backs again of me being tortured, I could hear my machine going out of control I started to scream because I was scared I couldn't feel Justin or my mother. Everything came back the sounds of Austins voice as he yelled at me in the past I felt my Arm and leg being broken again I even heard my painful shreeks for help. Screaming at the top of my lungs I woke up to a room full of nurses and doctors holding me down as I was haveing a panic attack " LET ME GO PLEASE LET ME GO IM SCARED LET ME GO LET ME GO!!!!" I yelled while crying " WHERE ARE YOU TAKEING ME!!! HELP HELP HELP!!!" I yelled everyone looked at me like I was a alien or something. "I think we need to put her under again." A doctor said " NO NO I DON'T WANT TO I DON'T WANT TO" I shreeked in a full blown panic attack " WHERES MY MOM WHERES JUSTIN I NEED HIM OR HER I NEED HIM OR HER PLEASE DON'T PUT ME BACK ASLEEP PLEASE!!!!!" "she defently needs to go back to sleep" one of the nurses said "NO!" I yelled but it was too late they put the meds in my ivy and I was fighting against the drowsyness of sleep. "NO WHY NO WHY!" I yelled " I only wanted my mom or Justin" I managed to say before I was under again,I felt them jossling me around which made me even more scared and they must have known it to because I fell under even more. The flash back came again and this time I couldn't stop it no matter how hard I tried to wake up it just didn't work I was forced to watch every scary thing that has happend to me in my life. I woke up again Sheeking,crying,and sweating. This time I was in my room at least I thought so but I wasnt sure if I was Justin rushed to me so fast you would have tought he was going to trip over himself " EM ARE YOU OKAY?" I was crying so much I didn't hear him nor did I for sure know where I was " I WANT JUSTIN PLEASE CAN SOMEONE FIND HIM!!!" I sheeked again while crying. Justin then got in the hospital bed with me " Shhh its okay Em its me shhhh its alright." "IT WAS HORRIBLE I KEPT HAVEING FLASH BACKS TO WHEN I WAS HURT AND WHEN AUSTIN FIRST STARTED TO HURT ME I WAS BEGGING FOR HELP NONE OF THE DOCTORS HELPED THEY JUST MADE ME WATCH IT OVER AND OVER!" "Shhh Em sh its okay hes gone he won't hurt you no more." He held me so close and so tight. That's how I knew it was him and I felt safe, he wipped my tears and let me lay on his chest. "Are you cold Em?"and thats when I realized I was out from under my blanket and only had a breezy Hospital gown on "yeah" Justin pulled the blanket over us he started rubbing my back. Justin then knoded but I didnt know why. "Wheres my mom,Layla, Ruby and why arnt you at school?" Justin looked down at me and smiled "your mom went to get your sister and your things Layla and Ruby visited yesterday but the meds had you out cold and I stayed the night here with you I told all of my teachers it is an emergency. I knew you needed me way more so all my teachers are sending me the homework and don't worry about the work all your teachers are excusing you from them do to your current condition." I started to feel drowsy again " NO ITS HAPPENING AGAIN JUSTIN NO!!" Justin cradled me "I'm not leaveing this time Em I know you don't like this and Im so sorry but you need the meds." He really cared about me a lot I knoded and fell asleep on his chest thats why he knoded he must have told the nurse to it. I woke up again and as promised Justin was right next to me asleep I heard the door open "hey sweetheart" my mom said in a rather loud voice. "Shh mom" I said in a whisper "why?" "Shhhh!" My mom walked in and saw Justin asleep and me on his chest. " Oh are you and him a thing?" "No but I have a crush on him" "You know I'm supportive but you guys barley know eachother I know you guys have been friends for quite some time but you guys never really had much of a bound" "I know but he saved my life  cheered me up every time I was down when I got picked on he beat the living hell out of them! You always say that I will know who is the one for me and I'll be honest  I didn't feel like Austin  was the one I only said yes because he was popular and I'm not its not like popular kids ask out lower class people like me, I would have been dumb to have said no but I see now that
It was a mistake. But with Justin I feel different I have this funny feeling every time we hang out or when I'm just around him I have felt it for along time but  pushed it aside. I know  what it is now its love every time he is with me I feel safe and protected. I've never felt this way about anyone." My mom starred at me I still was cuddleing next to Justin. " Wow I didn't know you cared about him in this way." "Well I do" I whispered. Justin hair fell in his eye,I laughed and moved it from his face he looked so peaceful and happy looked at my mother she was happy "You finally learned what love is." She said almost tearing up "Sure have but I don't know if he feels the same way."
"If he is the one you will know"I then remembered him calling me beautiful while I was sleeping but he could have been tired and didnt know what he said. But regardless if he ment it or not it ment something to me. I would hold that close to my heart forever.