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Chapter 5

"What do you want Selena?" My voice ran cold.

"Larry, I think we need to talk." Selena seemed unfazed by my tone. 

"We don't need to do anything," I said harshly.

"Wow, Larry... I'm sorry, okay? I was alone, alright? You were at the studio all the time, doing radio tours, promotions... I just needed someone, I guess... we didn't even have time for a quickie, I mean, I'm a woman, Larry... I have needs..." Her eyes were watery.

"Well it seems like you were getting those needs met. You don't need me."

"I don't love him..." Her voice broke, and I had to look away. She was chipping away at my armor with her tears but I tried to remain unaffected. 

"I can't do this... How many men did you slept with?" She looked up at me with red eyes.

"Wha-"

"You heard me. How many men did you sleep with me while we were together?" I gritted out.

"Just the one, Larry..." I could tell she was lying.

"Selena, if you want anything to work between us, you have to be honest." She huffed and picked at her nails, before mumbling a number. I cupped my ear.

"What was that, Selena? I couldn't hear that." She rolled her eyes before looking up at me.

"Fifteen, Larry, fifteen," she hissed between her teeth. I couldn't believe my ears.

"Are you serious, Selena? 15?! 15 different men? What the hell... that's not lonely Selena-" 

I cut myself off, trying to calculate the last time I slept with her. I counted back, one, two, six , seven months since I had last slept with Selena.

"Wow, Selena... I'm sorry I neglected you but I was trying to make it big baby, it was supposed to be for us..." My voice got softer and lower with each word.

"Well after Jace-"

"Don't you dare fucking mention Jace's name," I thundered. I turned away, unable to look at her, images of a cold baby boy in my arms...

"I'm so so sorry Larry, I just-"

"Nothing Selena, you just nothing- we are through Selena. Don't call me, don't text or email me. I want your stuff out my house by the time I get back from Greece, or it's all going to Goodwill."

"You're still going to Greece?" she yelled. I looked into her eyes, mine steely and hard.

"Yes, I am going to Greece with my new wife. I refuse to continue this conversation, Selena I have a plane to catch." I grabbed my luggage and made my way past her.

"She'll never be me, Larry!" she yelled after me. 

"Then she'll be one step ahead." I called not even glancing back. I heard her angry sobs follow me to the elevator.

Going back down to Deja's room, I saw her sitting on th bed, checking her phone, all her bags were packed. 

"Ready to go to Greece?" I smiled and she looked up at me.

"Sure thing, but first let's talk a selfie!" (LOL my real life BFF Dee always takes selfies, I have countless pics of her in my phone and on both of my iPods with countless filters, smh when I get around to deleting I feel too lazy to go through hers lmfao) 

I stood behind her and held still as she snapped a couple quick pics with her phone. 

"Alright let's go!"

We left and got to the airport, where we checked in and I bought a couple of head pillows. It was a 17 hour flight with two stops; one in Salt Lake City, Utah and one in Paris. I bought us a couple of headphones and I had a headphone splitter, so we could both listen to music with separate headphones.  After we were situated, I played a couple of songs but soon after departing Deja fell asleep on my shoulder and I fell asleep soon after. (The song I put the link to is a song that I am literally addicted to- I love crazy music and that sounds like sex to me lol)

Larry's Dream

I was running, running fast into a large forest. A laughter could be heard, one of a small child. I ran after the noise faster and faster. A small boy was running through the trees and I saw the top of his curly head. 

"Larry!" I heard Selena shriek. I paused, slowing down only a little not wanting to lose the boy and wanting to turn and help her also. 

"Larry!" I heard the same shriek in a different direction, I continued running- the child's laughter and her scream coming from the same place.

"Daddy, run faster! Faster!" I ran faster at the sound. Daddy?!

I tripped over a branch and fell in a pile of leafs. I looked up and saw Selena and the boy in a clearing of the field. Suddenly the boy started crying. I got up and dusted off my pants jogging to them.

Selena dropped and red started spreading on her dress. The little boy was also bleeding, fat wet drops spilling everywhere. I picked up the child, trying to see where the child was hurt, but it seemed to bet getting smaller and smaller in my grasp. What the hell? HIs blood was coating my skin and my clothes- warm and also cold at the same time.

Selena was in the grass next to me, and I kneeled over her- the baby was still bleeding and shrinking in my grasp. Finally, the baby stopped crying and was no longer shrinking. I saw a small, cold, blue newborn in my bloody hands.

"No... no.. no!" I whispered over and over. Lightly slapping the baby's skin I tried to see if it was breathing, but his little chest remained unmoving beneath my arms. 

"I'm so sorry, Larry." Selena's voice was weak, but she too was no longer crying. She was in a pool of blood and she whispered, "Jace," and passed out.

"Jace..." a tear fell on the baby's face from my eyes.

"WAKE UP LARRY!" Deja was whisper yelling in my ear. It was dark and most of the passengers were asleep, but a couple of them were glaring at me. My heart was beating fast, and I was breathing heavily. 

"What's going on?"

"You were having a nightmare.." Deja's concerned eyes were boring into mine. 

"Ooh." My tongue felt thick and I swallowed back the tears.

"You want to talk about it?" I shook my head softly. 

"Alright, but just remember- it's just a dream."

Just a dream, indeed.