I Fell Inlove With My BestFriend

I fell for you

Taehyung's pov.

I entered our flat with a big smile plastered
on my face and saw my best friend Jungkook sitting on the couch, he was intently looking at the paper he was holding.

I didn't bother calling him as I quickly made my way to my room but. 

“You’re gay?” he suddenly asked, anger and disgust is visible in his voice

but how? how did he find out?!

I froze on my spot, I feel my knees shaking, and my eyes are burning.

“What….what are you talking about?” I stutter. Not daring to turn around and face him.

But then I feel him grab my arm and turned me around making me face him. My heart starts beating fast, i felt sweat forming on my forehead.

“Hahahaha! Can you please stop acting like you don’t know what I’m saying! Cut the crap and tell me the TRUTH!” he said with much anger.

Why is he being so angry?! why?! he's my bestfriend.. w-why is he actibg this way?!

My blood boils not knowing why, maybe because this is not what I expected.

“Truth?...Truth?! You want the truth?!” I shouted back pushing him hard.
“Yes! I am! I’m F***ing gay! Does that even  matter?!”

He was silence for a second but the words that came out from his mouth when he started talking just completely stopped my breath.

“Are you seriously asking me that *Does it even matter?!* ofcourse it DOES! I walked around only wearing boxers, I cuddled with you, I slept in the same bed with you” he paused.

“I bet you planned this all! You..you keep being my best friend because you wa---“I punched him hard before he can finish his sentence.
He almost fell on the ground.
I can’t hold my tears anymore, hearing those words from him completely broke my heart into million pieces.

“That’s how you see me?! That’s what you think I am?!” I asked desperately.

He remained silent.

“Right, that’s are friends are for…hahaha! “ I laugh at myself thinking how pathetic I am.
I get something from my back pocket.

“Thought it would be the two of us…” I paused as my tears starts to flow harder. “But now I guess it’s only just me.” I continue as I tear apart the paper I was holding.

It was his plane ticket, I planned to bring him with me to U.S. thought he would be happy, but as I said a while ago, it will be just me.
I smiled at him with bloodshot eyes. Before rushing to my room.

I let out a loud sob as I closed my door, I land myself on my bed and start crying harder and harder. I know he can hear me, but I don’t think  he still cares.

I continue crying for hours, reminiscing happy memories that we shared. I love him for years now. I know that having him is really impossible. That is why I'm still happy being just his bestfriend, i'm contended as long as i'm with him even just a friend.

I calm myself before deciding to pack my things, I cleared all my cabinets and drawers.

It’s already midnight when I decided to leave our flat. I quickly entered my car and put all my things in the backseat.

I glanced to our flat one last time and whisper
" Just know that I will never regret loving you"
before finally drove off.