Just a Thought

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Ready to make this personal?
Yeah, ok good so here it goes.

Lately I've been really rather anxious and it didn't help when my grandma started to ask me if I'd been losing weight, those of you who know me irl can definitely say that I'm rather skinny, so when she kept asking that I got kinda concerned as well as confused so I went to check my weight. Mind you I don't know when I started to lose the weight, but I had gone from finally reaching an amazing 101 pounds to back down to 96.8 pounds. This scares me a lot because I've always been a little paranoid of becoming anorexic due to the fact that I am so small and skinny and such. I wouldn't have any problem with being over weight or mildly obese because most of my friends, with the exception of a few, are on the heavier side to put it nicely (I still feel like I'm insulting them yet I know I'm not ;-;). The thing is I just can't fathom how I'd even cope with being that far under weight, I'm probably just being overly anxious and paranoid or something like that but I can't help it I'm just terrified of the thought let alone it possibly even coming true. And to top all of that off my grandma has even been telling me that I've been eating less and I just kind of wish she would stop because it's really getting me panicked and stuff. Plus I've been trying to eat more but it feels like every time I eat something that someone punched me on the gut on top of feeling really nauseous, so I've been questioning if I have some sort of bug or not. And I mean I've thought about saying something to her about it but yet at the same time I don't really want to know what's wrong.

On another note a friend of mine that I met on Quotev deactivated his account and so I'm upset about that because I found out right when I went to go talk to him about the same topic as earlier so I kinda panicked and then turned to another friend who thankfully helped me out, you know who you are and thank you for being there for me friend.

Also my current internet setup is trash everything buffers and sometimes I can't send messages. It sucks, chokes, and swallows. But on the upside I will be getting some real internet on Friday. So yay for that. I also have my computer set back up so writing stories and drawing digitally will once again be a thing that I can do.

Art up top by me, I drew it a couple days ago.

That's all for now, see you soon my puppies.

-WolF