I officially hate myself. I do it to myself.
I want to feel something but it only ever lasts for a moment then it goes to shit.
Just like when I stupidly met up with my ex I knew it was a bad idea but I just had to do it.
We had one good night and then the next I am nothing to him. I've been tossed away...AGAIN
i know I hurt myself but I like it at the same time
Just like my vices
Just like my emotions
Just like physical pain
I like it.
I hate what I love.
Selfharm is my release.
I feel control, I feel free, I feel pain
I'm a fucking idiot
Everything I do is stupid.
Meeting an ex
Hanging out with old friends that screwed me over in the past
Hurting myself.
I don't know my end game, whether I want to feel something, or just be heard.
I don't know but I do know that no one is listening and if they are then I'm just tossed away and laughed at.
I hate myself
I hate what I do
I hate myself
