What We Used to Have

What We Used to Have

→The Balloon←

Remember when we first met, I was having problem to purchase the balloon I wanted. You bumped into the man that's selling the balloon and saw me wanting to buy it, so you called me little girl before walking away again without saying sorry to the seller.

☛New Student☚

Who knew we'd have you as the new student in our school. I still remember you being the jerk I met in amusement park that called me a little girl for wanting a balloon. You recognized me and to say I was surprised was an undestatement. But, instead of saying sorry for calling me a little girl, you called me that again and teased me about the pretty balloon.

❋Best Friend❋

Damn, my best friend for liking you and damn you for liking her back. After about two weeks of you getting here in school, we started to hang out and I hate to admit it, but I was slowly starting to like you. Now, I guess I have to move on since you and my best friend have already started dating.

↘Break Up↙

I hate how my best friend started to avoid me when you two started dating and now, I hate it more because she aleady forgot me when you two broke up after a month of dating. You came to me when you both broke up and admitted that she cheated on you with her ex-boyfriend.

☞Project☜

I was extremely happy that I was partnered with you. You grinned at me when you heard our names being called. The project was about getting to know more about each other and I was more than happy to do that project with you.

☁Your Best Friend☁

This time, the problem is your best friend. He hates me so much that he kept on trying to break our friendship. I tried to save it, I seriously tried my best, but you preferred to believe him more. If you know me well you wouldn't have believed him when he told you that I forced myself onto him and what hurts the most is you believed it.

✏Presenting the Project✏

I presented my part of the project, the students and the teacher clapped, telling me how beautiful and so special the way I did the project about you. I was happy because they think it's beautiful, but I guess you didn't because you were frowning. The way you presented your project about me made me want to cry, you hurt me so much for telling everyone in our class how much of a slut I am. I can't believe how much of a jerk you are.

☝Ignoring☟

I ignored you for a whole week, I want you to see how much you have hurt me and how much I hate you right now. But, even though I hate you, I still love you. Yes, I'm in love with you, you idiot, and I hate myself for loving you after what you've done to me. I've caught you peeking a look at me sometimes but you didn't try to talk or approach me and I tried to not let it bother me.

☠The Fight☠

It was scary. Damn you, you scared me so much that I wanted to kill you for that. The way you and your bastard of a best friend were throwing fists at each other in the middle of the school scared me. You were frightening that I wanted to cower and hide from you forever. I realized that you found out that he was lying about what he said about me that's why you two were fighting and I know you regretted it but I want you to gain my trust again because I am never trusting you ever again without proving anything that you deserve it.

☾Confession☽

Finally, after a month of proving you gained my trust again and right after that you asked me out. To say I was ecstatic was an understatement. We've been through a lot and I was happy that you got out of your shell and finally admitted that you like me too. I didn't say I'm in love with you because we were just starting for a relationship, but if I do or not tell you. Just know that, I really loved you so much.

✮Official✮

I can't believe it took you almost a month before asking me to be your girlfriend. You're such a coward that I want to hit your head repeatedly, but I love you nevertheless. You were so sweet throughout our relationship and I really thought we'd last.

✘Caught✘

I wish I never fell for you. It's sad because I was never able to admit it to you. We've only been dating for five months and I already caught you doing the deed with your ex-girlfriend who is my ex-best friend in your room. I wanted to kill you both and I would but you two aren't worth it. I happily threw the lamp at the both of you before smiling icily and walking away. Out of your life, you bastard.

∞Our Tragic Ending∞

Maybe if you had tried your best, I wouldn't be here. If you would have tried, you wouldn't be there. If you haven't screwed up too much then I wouldn't be married to a man that is not you. I'm going to admit this, I love him more than I did to you. It's sad because you were my first in everything but you screwed everything. It's sad because you're way over there alone with no one, while I'm happy with my own family that doesn't involve you. I feel bad because you can't have a perfect life, but I don't regret breaking up with you. Because if I didn't, I wouldn't be able to find the real love of my life. You ruined what we used to have.

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In her POV

I stopped typing on my laptop and clicked the enter for it to send on his mail. I used to love him. But, everything was now nothing. We used to have everything, but everything faded away as soon as he stopped trying.

My husband walked in and smiled at me, "Hi."

"Hey."

He hugged me from behind my back, his eyes scanning my mail, "You okay?"

"Never been better." I whispered, turning my head to face him.

He grinned at me, "I love you, baby."

"I love you too." I kissed him as I felt his hand on my stomach where our growing baby is placed inside.