Petal by petal, I’m slowly withering. I’m losing my beauty but I don’t mind. Nothing lasts forever after all.
I loved you for the longest time but my feelings for you are remained unknown. I kept my secret for myself and I never told a soul about it. I thought I can endure the pain but my condition is getting worse by each passing day. I let you ruin me but I’m the only one who felt it. The irony, I can only laugh at the thought.
After so many ways of escaping this beautiful yet deadly illusion I fell from you, I can’t seem to set myself free. I’m stuck in this endless argument between my heart and mind. I let myself lose in this battle because there’s no way of winning when I can’t make you mine. I accepted my fate that you’ll never be mine. I can only smile because you deserve the world and I don’t deserve you after all.
You walked down the aisle with her and all I could do is to smile and hide all the withered petals surrounding me from letting myself hurt. Why am I enjoying this? Even I can’t answer that. You wore the most beautidul smile, I melted but you’ll never notice it.
As you both sealed the deal, I could only smile and wished you the best since I’m slowly passing. I’ll fade away in this world soon.
One tear fell, because I felt the pain that I’ve been hiding from you. As I looked up to the sky and sighed, flower petals flew by, more than I expected. I smiled, because I know that my time is almost up.
“I guess this is the feeling of unrequited, huh?”
I sat on my bed in my room, filled with red and pink flower petals scattered all over the floor and flying by.
“I guess this is the end, huh?” I said quietly. A single tear fell, the tear landed on the petal on my lap.
I smiled and accepted my fate by slowly laying myself down and closing my eyes. I can’t change the fate, even if I tried. No one can save me, not the finest doctors, not my parents, not even myself.
You can’t save my life, even if you tried.
I don’t blame you though, I know I’m a fool but I guess I’m a fool until the very end.
I felt sleepy; I smiled and said my last words in this world.
“I love you”
I blossomed.
