trigger warnings. this poem includes suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety and degrading language towards myself.
I urge you to not read it if you know that you're being effected by any of these things. You may not realise it's effect after reading it but it undoubtedly may have one.
Take care and I love you, stay alive another day. Take it one day at a time and my inbox is always open to you. I'm sorry for the pain you're feeling, the thought that so many people are feeling what I'm feeling all the time makes me cry.
love, ruth (always more rather than less)
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05| 𝔡 𝔦 𝔰 𝔬 𝔯 𝔦 𝔢 𝔫 𝔱 𝔢 𝔡
there are demons that haunt my mind the kind that hide in the cruel shadows being made from the loneliest nights, where anxiety and depression.., depression turned to lethal thoughts; made from the brick protecting thy sleeping head while mine lays awake staring at ceilings instead of night skies and there's a buzz, a slight hum, so loud in my mind but being heard by none at 2:21 and it starts off whispering when I begin listening, I hope I die in my sleep tonight I hope I die in my sleep tonight I hope I die in my sleep tonight I hope I die in my sleep tonight I hope I die in my sleep tonight I hope I die in my sleep tonight I hope I die in my sleep tonight I hope I die in my sleep tonight I hOpe I diE in MY sleeP TonIgHT.
just let it end, let peace reign a place in my soul so that I don't feel constantly dethroned while a dark figure stares down at me.
Thee didn't see the effect of thy words, how it keeps me up thinking of how I'm not enough how no matter how hard I try I'll always be told to try harder... does thee know how terribly that hurts me how it pricks thorns into my skin every single time it crosses this numbed mind?
just let it end.
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